#13 Things Fast Food Does to Your Body

[mejaemin]

hello !! i saw ur 1 to 13 event, and honestly, this is my first time sending an ask to sum1 🥀🥀🥀 but i didnt want to miss out on this one

if it’s alright, would prompt 18 be okay with seungkwan and vernon (as the friend) ? either way is fine too actually, or if not them, could also go for hoshi and jihoon (either way again) im absolutely not picky at all ehdgehhedy hope im doing this right TT thank youuu ! <333

verkwan + that one friend who might as well be your third

warnings: kwan x reader, vernon is the friend, reader and kwan are nakey but vernon does not care and is still in their business, mentions of sex, sassy and annoyed boo <333 an: anon I LOVE YOU !!! ur so genius and im honored to receive ur first request !!! i love it so much that i accidentally made it 200 words too long… you’re welcome? u did perfectly fine and tysm for participating in the event 🫶🏽🫶🏽🫶🏽 im sorry for the wait </3 1 to 13 masterlist !!!

you’re sleeping peacefully against seungkwan’s chest, knocked out after the previous night. it had been a long day full of social interaction, dragging on and forcing you both to sit in the desire you had to.. be alone, ending in you both staying up until sunrise. not a single inch of you regretted it though, welcoming the aches in your body and the slumber that’s been stretching out way into the almost evening.

vernon invites himself into yours and your boyfriend’s apartment, eyebrow quirked at the silence. he has a bag of treats with him that he sets on the kitchen counter, greeting your kitty and handing it the pet safe one he bought. after unboxing the rest, he takes a pastry to eat while going to look for you.

clearly the search was easy because all he has to do is enter your bedroom to find the both of you. he takes note of your bare shoulders and freezes, hesitating before shrugging and going to flop on the foot of the bed.

he nudges your foot, “hey. get up.”

you whine, stretching as you wake. when your eyes open you spot your.. best friend? laying at your feet, chocolate frosting sitting on the corners of his mouth. you smile, not even fazed at the fact that you’re not wearing anything under your blanket. you’ve never thought twice about his presence in your lives, even if it’s stepping over lines (ones you’re not sure you and kwan ever drew). it’s just right, okay?

“kwan’s gonna get mad that you’re eating on the bed..” you turn to glance at him, and he’s still fast asleep, drooling on his own arm.

hansol’s watching him too, and he just shrugs. “whatever. you gotta taste this. he does too, actually.” he holds out the snack to you.

you take it, fully trusting the boy’s taste in food, and as soon as you take a bite, you almost die. it really is the best thing you’ve ever tasted. you’re immediately shaking seungkwan awake, and he sits up in fear, as if he was getting robbed, before immediately rolling his eyes.

“are you serious? i thought you were in pain or something, couldn’t you have woken me up more nicely-” he notices the third person in his bed, “oh, hi.” he turns back to you to continue his scolding when he sees the food in your hand, and his voice gets impossibly louder. “oh come on, and you’re eating in here too?! what, you can’t walk to the kitchen?!”

vernon just snickers in the background as you slowly hand him the pastry. “taste it, it’s so worth it.” he begrudgingly leans forward, too lazy to grab it, taking a bite straight from your hand. “and for the record, no. i probably can’t walk to the kitchen. or anywhere.”

seungkwan nearly chokes, but all you do is laugh. eventually, the three of you settle down into casual conversation. it flows naturally, no bumps or hiccups despite being indecent underneath the covers. when it comes to your relationship with your boyfriend, vernon is sort of an extension of that, and is the only one who knows everything about and relating to you both. no secrets between you and boo? well, there’s none between you two and vernon either. he’s a part of you two. that’s exactly why you all fall back asleep, him laying at the foot of the bed on top of the blanket. it’s normal.

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[morgana-larkin]

So I rewatched the episode where Melissa loses Sweet Cheeks (as one does), and got some inspiration for mamma Mel and wrote the next chapter of Mine! Not edited in the slightest and I hope you like it!

Summary: An incident happens at the daycare that involved Amelia.

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6 Part 7 Part 8 Part 9 Part 10 Part 11 Part 13

Mine - Part 12

Warnings: Smut, the tinniest bit of violence with Amelia, protective Mel

Words: 3K

“Then you put the piece here.” Amelia tells Caty as she was helping her with a puzzle toy. “Mommy, Cat figured it out fast.” 

“I see that sweetheart, and I see you teaching her. Your mommies are very proud of you for helping out with your siblings.” You tell her and give her a kiss on the cheek and Amelia smiles at the compliment.

“Hey Tesoro, come taste this.” Melissa says to her daughter as she emerges from the kitchen.

“What is it Mamma?” Amelia asks as she runs up to Melissa.

“I had to use a substitute for the meal as there’s two mushroom haters in the house.” Melissa tells her and Amelia tastes the food.

“I like it, Mamma.” Amelia says and Melissa smiles.

“Good, that’s what we’re having for lunch.” Melissa tells her before she picks Amelia up and places her on top of her booster chair as you place Nico in his high chair.

“Wow she already undid the puzzle and is putting it back together.” You say as you look at Caterina. You then pick her up and she whines at being pulled away from the puzzle but then settles her head on your chest. “And there we go.” You say as you place Caty in her high chair. Melissa comes out and places a bowl in front of Caty and Nico before giving Amelia a plate. She goes back into the kitchen and comes out with two plates for you and herself. You watch as the twins start eating before you take a bite yourself and you see that Melissa is smiling at Amelia who’s happily eating. All of a sudden you hear Melissa yelp and you look to see her looking at a piece of food on the table and see it’s a mushroom piece and looks at Caty.

“Am I going to have one child, just one, that likes mushrooms?” She asks and you try not to laugh as you realise that Caty threw a mushroom at Melissa. “Oh shut it.” She tells you as she sees you trying not to laugh.

“Looks like Nico is that one child.” You tell her and she looks beside her to see Nico eating everything, including the mushrooms. “Did Caty really throw a mushroom at you?” You ask her and she nods before she eats the mushroom that Caty threw. You then take Caty’s bowl and take out all the mushrooms and give them to Melissa. “We could have gotten them to taste mushrooms another way instead of sneaking them into their servings.” You tell her and she shrugs. 

After lunch you both put all the kids down for their naps and then you go downstairs to see Melissa on the couch with her glasses on, reading something intensely. 

“Whatcha reading?” You ask her and sit down beside her.

“How is it that Caty is still not talking? I’ve been trying to practice with her with all these tips and tricks I’m reading about but nothing seems to be working.” Melissa says and you get her to let go of her phone and take her hand and wrap it around you.

“She’s just a late talker, that’s all.” You tell her.

“And I get that but it’s been three weeks since I’ve been trying all these different things to help her and nothing is working.” She complains and you snuggle into her and you feel her body let the tension go.

“Stop stressing. Especially since we go back to work in 4 days. Just enjoy spending time with all of our kids without worrying about them.” You say.

“I worry about them all the time, all the time.” She tells you.

“I know, and so do I. But don’t worry about Caty, she’ll learn in her own time. And if she’s still not saying anything by 2 then it’s not like we don’t have a handful of teachers who would be willing to help us.” You remind her and she takes a breath. 

“You’re right.” She says and you smile.

“Of course I’m right, now I’m feeling up for a nap myself.” You say and she looks at you with a smirk before you pull her to the bedroom.

*4 days later*

“You’re going to be a good girl for the caretakers, right Tesoro?” Melissa asks Amelia as you’re dropping her and the twins off before you go to work.

“Yes Mamma, the best one.” Amelia tells Melissa.

“That’s my girl.” Melissa says and Amelia hugs her. “We’ll be back at 3:30 to pick you and the twins up.” 

“I can’t tell time.” Amelia reminds her.

“Sorry, I teach my second graders that all the time.” Melissa says with a smile before she places a kiss on Amelia’s forehead.

You and her go to work after and you’re both sitting in the breakroom before everyone arrives.

“You both got here early.” Barb says.

“We get up 40 minutes early as Amelia wants to do everything herself.” Melissa tells her.

“At a snail’s pace.” You add. “Although luckily she’s getting faster.” You say and Melissa nods.

“I remember Taylor being 3. By age 4 they seem to understand more and are quicker.” Barb tells you both and you yawn. You bring your chair closer to Melissa and lean your head on her shoulder.

“Tired Amore?” She asks and you nod. “Same, since Caty had a nightmare and woke

everyone up.” She complains and you hum.

4 hours later you’re decorating your classroom when you hear a door slam shut and recognise Melissa’s heels as she runs to your classroom. You look just in time to see a worried Melissa make it to your doorway.

“We gotta go.” She says as she walks into your classroom and packs up your things for you.

“What? Where? Why?” You ask her.

“There was an incident that happened at the daycare and Amelia was involved.” She tells you and you grab your things and you and Melissa head out quickly. You get to the daycare at the same time as another parent and you see Amelia and another kid sitting outside an office.

“Mrs and Mrs Schemmenti as well as Mrs Weller, right this way.” One of the workers says to all of you and you all walk inside the office. “So I’m afraid there was an incident involving Amelia and Dylan. A fight, more specifically.” They explain and you look at Melissa looking worried and see her fist clenching. “Dylan took something from Amelia, Amelia tried asked for it back and Dylan kept refusing and he pushed her and she pushed him back.” They further explain and Melissa starts to stand up but you pull her back to sit on the chair. 

“Is that little brat your kid?” She asks the mother and she nods.

“Melissa, calm down.” You tell her.

“No, a kid bullied our daughter, I’m not going to calm down.” She tells you.

“Mrs Schemmenti, we understand this can worry or anger parents when they’re child gets into a fight, which is why we always hope to resolve these and make sure they don’t happen again.” The worker tells Melissa before looking at you and Melissa stands up before you could stop her. 

“That little brat out there pushed my daughter, I think she deserves an apology as she tried the nice way and she had to defend herself.” Melissa says to everyone before she walks out of the room and you follow after her. “Tesoro, are you ok?” She asks Amelia as she gets down on her knees in front of Amelia.

“I fell down and it hurt.” Amelia tells Melissa and she wipes the tears in her eyes.

“Oh I’m sorry that happened Tesoro, you’re ok now, mamma and mommy are here.” She tells her and Melissa immediately brings her into a hug. Amelia wraps her arms around Melissa’s neck and Melissa tightens her hold on her daughter as she stands up, still holding onto Amelia. Amelia nuzzles her head on Melissa’s chest as Melissa turns towards the other kid.

“Dylan, did you take something and push this girl?” You hear the mother ask Dylan and you stroke Amelia’s head.

“She had the colouring pencil I wanted.” Dylan complains. “I tried asking for it but she wouldn’t give it to me.” 

“Dylan, she didn’t give it because she was using it. You can’t just take something that someone else is using.” The mother tells him. “Now, I want you to apologise to Amelia.” She adds and Dylan turns to look at all of you. 

“Sorry.” He says and you nod before you look at Melissa.

“Amelia, do you accept his apology?” You ask her and Amelia looks at him.

“Don’t be mean again.” She tells him and Dylan nods.

“I hope your son doesn’t touch any of my kids again.” Melissa threatens the mother before you decide to grab the twins and go home early with all your kids. You set the twins up with some toys as Melissa places Amelia down on the couch and sits beside her. “Do you want to talk about it or have any questions?” Melissa asks her.

“Why did he take something from me and push me?” Amelia asks and you go and sit on the other side of her.

“Some kids are mean and there’s not always an explanation as to why they’d rather be mean than nice.” Melissa explains to her, trying in a way that a 3 year old would understand bullying. And even though she didn’t ask it, you both know the other question that’s on her mind, the ‘why me?’ question.

“And sweetheart, there’s no explanation as to why certain people have people being mean to them.” You tell her and then open up your arms for her. She then crawls into your lap and rests her head where your heart is, listening to your heartbeat.

“I pushed him back.” Amelia admits after a few seconds and she looks guilty. “Are you mad at me mamma?”

“Of course I’m not mad at you, Tesoro.” She tells her. “We understand you were trying to defend yourself in a way that you know how. Next time just let an adult know and they can handle the mean person.” Melissa says and Amelia nods. You both set Amelia up with her favourite show and then you follow Melissa into the kitchen as you can tell she’s still mad. You watch as she grabs some food from the fridge and slams the fridge door shut.

“Melissa.” You say and walk up to her as she starts cutting a pepper up. “Melissa, honey you need to calm down.” You tell her and she looks at you.

“How do you expect me to be calm when my daughter was just the victim of bullying?” She asks you angrily and waves the knife around a bit.

“Ok, first, give me the knife or put it down.” You tell her and she sighs before she puts it down on the counter. “And I know it’s frustrating that it happened and you couldn’t protect her, but the situation is over and the kid apologised.” You say and grab her hands. “I know it’s not ideal but things like this happens between kids, especially kids around Amelia’s age.” You add.

“I know, I just don’t want anything to happen to her, to any of my kids.” Melissa tells you and you wrap your arms around her neck as you give her a hug and she wraps her arms around your waist.

“I know, I don’t want anything to happen to them too.”

“How have you been so calm?” 

“Because one of us has to be, and I knew immediately that it wasn’t going to be my short-tempered wife.” You say to her and she smiles.

“You’re right, I’m very short tempered.” She tells you.

“It was more mama bear today though. You know even when I was just your aide, I always knew you’d make an amazing mother.” You say and she gives you a kiss.

“Thank you.” She tells you before she gives you another kiss. The kiss suddenly deepens and becomes more hungry and passionate and you pull away.

“Melissa, Amelia and the twins are-”

“In the other room, occupied.” She interrupts before she kisses your neck.

“If we get caught then it’s your fault.” You say.

“That’s alright with me.” She tells you before she trails her hand down your pants and finds your clit. “I can’t wait until tonight to have you.” She says. She goes to your entrance and gathers some of your wetness and then rubs your clit. You buck your hips and she traps you between her and the counter, pinning your hips to the counter with her body. “You’re so hot like this, wanting me to give you your release.” She says as you place your head on her shoulder to muffle your noises. 

She then sticks a finger in your entrance without warning and you let out a muffled gasp. She lifts your head and instantly places her lips on yours, muffling all your noises another way, her much preferred way. She inserts a second finger in you and you feel the stretch, immediately wanting more so you pull away from her lips.

“Add another.” You say, panting.

“Another? I guess I’m not the only horny one today.” She tells you before she places a finger in your mouth and you suck on it as she inserts a third finger inside of you. You moan around her finger and she quirks an eyebrow at you before she inserts a fourth finger inside of you and you let out a muffled scream but you don’t stop her. She starts curling her fingers inside of you after a few pumps and your legs start shaking. 

“I love you.” You say, a bit muffled around your finger and she smiles at you.

“I love you too, amore.” She tells you and then you suck her finger hard as you come around her fingers. When you come you lose your footing and it was good that Melissa pushed her body up even more so you don’t fall as she couldn’t catch you as both her hands were inside you. “I feel much better now.” She says and she takes her hands out of you.

“Do you want to come too?” You ask her and she shakes her head.

“Making and watching you come calmed me down.” She tells you and you wrap your arms around her waist and pull her right up against you.

“Tonight, we’re continuing what you started.” You say to her and she smirks.

“Can’t wait.” She tells you and gives you a kiss. “Now, how about you stay with our daughter and I’ll just continue the snack I was making?” She suggests and you nod. 

“Just don’t go plotting against a 3 year old.” You tell her as you leave the kitchen. Melissa exits the kitchen a few minutes later and sees you running after Nico. “Runaway baby!” You shout as you catch up to him and lift him up into the air and Nico giggles. “You little sneakster, just like your mamma.” You tell him playfully.

“Alright I got some berries and peppers here for everyone.” Melissa says to the room as she places the plate on the coffee table. You place Nico down who goes running towards Melissa. He hugs Melissa’s leg and she smiles at him.

“Mamma.” He says and she lifts him up.

“That’s right sweetie.” Melissa says to him. 

“Hamsters.” Nico says and points to Sweet Cheeks cage.

“They’re Guinea pigs.” Melissa corrects him as she brings him over to the Cheeks family cage.

“Mommy, why does Cat not talk?” Amelia asks you as she grabs a piece of pepper and you walk over to the couch. 

“She’s just a little slow to learn but she’ll catch up.” You tell her. “She’s walking around just like you and your brother, but some people just learn to talk a little later than others.” You explain to her.

“Why was Mamma yelling at the daycare? I heard her in the office.” Amelia asks you and you see Melissa happily showing Sweet Cheeks to Nico.

“Because she loves you and we get frustrated or angry when people we love are hurt.” You tell her.

“You weren’t yelling.” She says and you nod.

“One of us has to remain calm to not go overboard, and we both know your mamma is not one to remain calm.” You say with a smile and Amelia laughs.

“What are you two laughing about over here?” Melissa says as she walks towards you both, holding Nico’s hand. You look over at Amelia and hold a finger to your mouth to tell her not to tell Melissa.

“Nothing, mamma.” Amelia says and Melissa raises her eyebrows and lets go of Nico’s hand and he goes to play with his toys with Caty.

“Nothing huh? Well maybe I have to tickle it out of you.” Melissa says as she goes up to Amelia who quickly gets off the couch and runs away while laughing. Melissa quickly catches up with Amelia and tickles her.

“Ahh! Mamma stop!” Amelia says while laughing.

“Are you gonna tell me now?” Melissa asks.

“Mommy! Help!” Amelia asks of you. You make your way over and grab Amelia and lift her up to your hip. Melissa grabs you and begins tickling you and you start laughing.

“Ok I fold!” You say while laughing and Melissa stops and tilts her head as she looks at you. “We were just saying out of the two of us, you aren’t the calm one. Amelia was asking why she heard you yelling in the office.” You say and Melissa hums.

“Well one of us has to be irrational.” Melissa says and kisses your forehead. “Did I scare you Amelia?” She asks her daughter.

“No, just wondering why you were yelling.” Amelia tells her and you hand Amelia over to Melissa.

“Well as your mommies, we want to protect you and I will always try to protect you and I was angry that someone harmed you.” Melissa tells her and Amelia nuzzles her head on Melissa’s chest.

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[zewik7]

Whats your fat story? like waht made you want to get so big and fat?

Okay buckle up because it’s REALLY effed up as a story.

BE WARNED!! THIS IS A REALLY LONG POST!!

I was JUST 4 years old when, in the solitude of my little bedroom, i played pretend within myself in my toddler crib: i was a little piggy and was destined to be fattened up.

Flash forward: i was 7, i was playing pretend still with that setting, and weighed myself before drinking as much water i could, and weighing myself after that too. I enjoyed seeing the little numbers on the scale go up so fast.

Flash forward: it was early 2000 years, i was 10 and a bit chubby, and the social fashion and new norm was being thin, too thin, so thin you could see ribs. I was regularly called fat, lardass, fatass, even tho i was of normal corporature. I was always angry about this, i didn’t felt fat!

Flash forward: i was 12 and EVERYONE called me fat because i developed early and already had big tits. The rest of my body was thin, i could feel the inter-ribs space with my fingers, but for the culture fo the time i was FAT. I started doing A LOT of sports, like swimming half week and karate the other half week, and that made me bulky, not thin at all. Fat-related bullying intensified at the point that at 13 years old i requested to my mother if i could go to a nutritionist for becoming thinner. She complied, but i got so stressed from the bullying, too much sport and trying on the top of this to be the best in my class, that i actually gained weight… the “wrong” kind of weight. The FAT weight.

I was 14 when i put my fingers on the minimal curve of my belly, the littlest pouch of fat i had when i was like 7 and never again, and pushed and squeezed it. And i loved it. I searched on google, in my mother tongue (italian): “what does it means if i like being fat?”. And it found a single 100ish people forum on BHM and BBW in italian, and i spent a week reading it, watching the SFW photos, i even requested access by registration to the forum.

And THERE. THERE i asked the fundamental question: “everyone i know wants to be thin… but i like being fat. I’d like to be fatter, even. I am wrong? Am i a bad person for feeling like this?”.

And response, gentle and welcoming and kind, was immediately: “no, you’re not a bad person for wanting to decide for your own body in your own way. You’re little for now, but one day you’ll get to choose for yourself what to do about it”.

But i was 14. And any 14yo ever existed believes they know everything in the world.

So i started using my allowance. Normally i’d store it in a box under my bed until i really wanted something (at the time i already spent like 200€ for an ipod touch, but i still had a decent sum remaining), but now i planned and invested my money in my fattening.

I started buying food on the way from home to school and returning, every place selling food knew me by name for the end of the school year. And i packed kgs like my body was so thirsty for them!!

In just two years (2!!) i went from 14 yo per 55 kg (155 cm height) to 16 yo per 115 kg (160 cm height).

I bumped into things with my body because i wasn’t used to being so large! And i was so effing soft!!! I loved it!!!

It was… interesting, from an external point of view, for sure.

My parents couldn’t wrap their minds around HOW i doubled in weight in just two years, for example.

And of course they had to stop me.

They stopped giving me allowance, reprised making me do sports (this time, swimming and modern dance), put me on a strict diet… but I LONGED for that freedom, that big quantities of food and sugary carbonated drinks, even the fatigue and short breath from running briefly… but more than anything… i hated i was losing my physical softness.

In other two years, from 16 to 18, i went from 115 kg to 75 kg.

Then my mother died and she left me some money, so i could go away from home (never loved that other parent too much) in 2015 and start my TRUE gaining.

Since then, I gained more than 125 kg (280 lbs).

[ireadwithmyears]

Ireadwithmyears 300 Follower Milestone Event

Hi, everyone. As discussed and as promised, I am here to bring you my 300 followers milestone fic Writeing event. Rather than just posting a prompt list and letting you pick from those, don’t get me wrong, still fun, but, I wanted to do something that felt a little bit more personal to each of you, as it means a lot to me that anyone is here at all and reading the silly little stories about these wonderful copy paste boys that I write. So, as a thank you, I present...

What are you needing right now? 

Event details 

Send me a request with the following details. 

1: desired clone/clones, if unable to choose.

2: let me know of something that you find yourself in need of, that you feel your favourite clone could give you, in this moment. It could be something that you’re craving mentally, physically or emotionally (specific examples below)

3: be sure to specify if you want your fic to be platonic, a romantic pairing, and if you would like NSFW Content. Also if you would prefer your reader to be fem or gn.

With all of this information, I will Write each of you a story, (I’d like to say on the shorter side, but with me, you never really know, detailing how your clone helps make sure you get exactly what you need in their own unique and caring ways

Rules 

•This event is open to everyone, however, if your request contains NSFW/18+ content, you may not send in that request anonymously. 

•Requests will remain open from February 13 to February 27, 12 AM Eastern after which they will be closed, and I will not be excepting late entries.

•You may request any clones that you would like to. However, you may want to familiarize yourself with my masterlist so that you are aware of who I am most comfortable with before requesting, so as to not be met with potential disappointment if a character who I have not written for before does not turn out the way you’d hoped. Not to say that I won’t write for characters who I haven’t written for before. This is absolutely not the case. I would be happy to, because there’s a first time for everything. However

•The rarer the clone is, legends clones ET see, the less comfortable I will be with writing them. So I would appreciate a variety of options to pick from, just in case I am not comfortable with fulfilling your main option.

•I would love to write more for any of the bad batch members, which you by no means are obligated to stick with, but I’m just saying 😉

•Please reblog the finished product once I have posted your request.

Examples 

You don’t need to stick with any of these examples, however, if you’re looking for some inspiration, here are some prompts. 

Right now, I need...

Someone to give me a hug 

Someone to wrap me in a warm blanket 

Someone to make me home-cooked food.

Someone to do *insert Something fun I enjoy* With me

Someone to make me stop neglecting my health/basic human needs. 

Someone who makes me feel safe enough to rest and take a break 

Someone to make me feel loved/wanted/desired 

Someone who I can make feel loved/Wanted/desired 

Someone to comfort me when I’m upset/sad/all the nasty emotions that us humans are forced to suffer through 

Slow, tender sex 

Fast, rough sex 

To let someone worship my body 

To worship someone else’s body 

You get the picture? Great. I want to leave this as open as possible. So if you want to get specific, you can, as much as you’re comfortable with. On the flipside, if you want to keep things simple, you can absolutely use one of the prompts above, or create your own. Whatever sparks your fancy.

Again, thank you so much for 300 followers. I hope this event can bring you some joy or happiness, or whatever you might be needing at the moment.💞

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GRACE UPON GRACE E:16

The Power Of Fasting: What It Really Means

Hi y’all welcome to episode 16 of Grace Upon Grace! Today we are going to discuss the power of fasting:) Fasting is one of the most powerful spiritual disciplines in the Christian life. Throughout the Bible, we see men and women of faith turning to fasting as a way to draw closer to God, seek His will, and experience breakthroughs. But what does fasting really mean? Is it just about skipping meals, or is there something deeper behind it? We are going to talk 1. Fasting Is About Dependence On God 2. Fasting Is An Act Of Worship And Surrender 3. Fasting Brings Spiritual Breakthrough 4. Fasting Must Be Paired With Prayer 5. Different Types Of Fasting 6. The Right And Wrong Way To Fast <3

Fasting Is About Dependence On God:

At its core, fasting is not just about abstaining from food, it’s also replacing physical nourishment with spiritual dependence on God. When we fast, we acknowledge that we need God more than anything else in this world. Jesus Himself emphasised this when He said:

“Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceeds from the mouth of God.” - MATTHEW 4:4

Trust fasting shifts our focus away from the things that sustain our bodies and towards the One who sustains our souls.

Fasting Is An Act Of Worship And Surrender:

Fasting is a way to humble ourselves before God. It’s a form of surrender where we set aside earthly desires and tell God, “I need You more than I need food, entertainment, and distractions.”

King David understood this when he said:

“I humbled myself with fasting.” - PSALM 35:13

Through fasting, we acknowledge our need for God’s presence, wisdom, and power. It’s an act of worship that deepens our intimacy with Him.

Fasting Brings Spiritual Breakthrough:

In the Bible, fasting often preceded great spiritual victories and divine intervention. Here are a few examples:

• Moses fasted: Before receiving the Ten Commandments (EXODUS 34:28).

• Daniel fasted: and received divine revelation (DANIEL 10:2-3,12).

• Esther fasted: before approaching the king, and God saved her people (ESTHER 4:16).

• Jesus fasted: for 40 days before beginning His ministry (MATTHEW 4:2).

When we fast with a sincere heart, we open the door for God to move in powerful ways. Whether we’re seeking guidance, deliverance, or revival, fasting positions us to receive from the Lord.

Fasting Must Be Paired With Prayer:

Biblical fasting is always connected to prayer. Simply skipping meals without praying is just dieting! Jesus taught that certain spiritual battles require both prayer and fasting:

“This kind does not go out except by prayer and fasting.” - MATTHEW 17:21 (NKJV)

When we fast, we should dedicate time to reading scripture, worship, and prayer. It’s about replacing this time we normally spend eating with time spent in God’s presence.

Different Types Of Fasting:

Fasting is not a one-sized-fits all practice. There are different ways to fast, and The Holy Spirit can guide you in choosing the right one:

1. Full Fast - Abstaining from all food and only drinking water (or sometimes juice).

2. Partial Fast (Daniel Fast) - Avoiding certain food, such as meat, sweets, and processed foods, while eating fruits, vegetables, and whole grains (Daniel 10:3).

3. Intermittent Fasting -

Fasting for a set time each day (e.g., fasting from sunrise to sunset).

4. Media Or Social Media Fast -

Abstaining from distractions like Tv, social media, or entertainment to focus on God.

The Right And Wrong Way To Fast:

Jesus warned against fasting for the wrong reasons. In Matthew 6:16-18, He cautioned against fasting to impress others or appear more spiritual. Instead, He encouraged fasting in a way that is humble and between you and God.

Trust fasting is about seeking God, not seeking attention. It should be done with the right heart that’s out of love for Him, not legalism or self-righteousness.

I hope y’all enjoyed this subject and learnt a thing or two<3 read your bible, worship, and pray today to our one and only Jesus Christ. Remember God loves you and God bless, till next time!:))))

JOHN 6:35-

“I am the bread of life; whoever comes to me shall not hunger, and whoever believes in me shall never thirst.”

EZRA 8:21

“Ezra proclaimed a fast by the river of Ahava, so that they might humble themselves before God and seek a safe journey for themselves, their children, and their possessions.”

ESTHER 4:16 KJV

“Go, gather together all the Jews that are present in Shushan, and fast ye for me, and neither eat nor drink three days, night or day: I also and my maidens will fast likewise; and so will I go in unto the king, which is not according to the law: and if I perish, I perish.”

ACTS 13:2-3

“While they were worshiping the Lord and fasting, the Holy Spirit said, “Set apart for me Barnabas and Saul for the work to which I have called them.” So after they had fasted and prayed, they placed their hands on them and sent them off.”

MATTHEW 6:16-18-

“When you fast, do not look somber as the hypocrites do, for they disfigure their faces to show others they are fasting. Truly I tell you, they have received their reward in full. But when you fast, put oil on your head and wash your face, so that it will not be obvious to others that you are fasting, but only to your Father, who is unseen; and your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you.”

[tijanatasmaric11]

— 1. Who was the last person you held hands with?

2. Are you outgoing or shy?

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?

4. Are you easy to get along with?

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?

15. What good thing happened this summer?

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

17. Do you think there is life on other planets?

18. Do you still talk to your first crush?

19. Do you like bubble baths?

20. Do you like your neighbors?

21. What are you bad habits?

22. Where would you like to travel?

23. Do you have trust issues?

24. Favorite part of your daily routine?

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?

26. What do you do when you wake up?

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?

28. Who are you most comfortable around?

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?

30. Do you ever want to get married?

31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail?

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?

33. Spell your name with your chin.

34. Do you play sports? What sports?

35. Would you rather live without TV or music?

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?

37. What do you say during awkward silences?

38. Describe your dream girl/guy?

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?

40. What do you want to do after high school?

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?

43. Do you smile at strangers?

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?

46. What are you paranoid about?

47. Have you ever been high?

48. Have you ever been drunk?

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?

51. Ever wished you were someone else?

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?

53. Favourite makeup brand?

54. Favourite store?

55. Favourite blog?

56. Favourite colour?

57. Favourite food?

58. Last thing you ate?

59. First thing you ate this morning?

60. Ever won a competition? For what?

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?

62. Been arrested? For what?

63. Ever been in love?

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?

65. Are you hungry right now?

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?

67. Facebook or Twitter?

68. Twitter or Tumblr?

69. Are you watching tv right now?

70. Names of your bestfriends?

71. Craving something? What?

72. What colour are your towels?

72. How many pillows do you sleep with?

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?

75. Favourite animal?

76. What colour is your underwear?

77. Chocolate or Vanilla?

78. Favourite ice cream flavour?

79. What colour shirt are you wearing?

80. What colour pants?

81. Favourite tv show?

82. Favourite movie?

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?

85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?

87. First person you talked to today?

88. Last person you talked to today?

89. Name a person you hate?

90. Name a person you love?

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?

92. In a fight with someone?

93. How many sweatpants do you have?

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?

95. Last movie you watched?

96. Favourite actress?

97. Favourite actor?

98. Do you tan a lot?

99. Have any pets?

100. How are you feeling?

101. Do you type fast?

102. Do you regret anything from your past?

103. Can you spell well?

104. Do you miss anyone from your past?

105. Ever been to a bonfire party?

106. Ever broken someone’s heart?

107. Have you ever been on a horse?

108. What should you be doing?

109. Is something irritating you right now?

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?

111. Do you have trust issues?

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?

113. What was your childhood nickname?

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?

115. Do you play the Wii?

116. Are you listening to music right now?

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?

118. Do you like Chinese food?

119. Favourite book?

120. Are you afraid of the dark?

121. Are you mean?

122. Is cheating ever okay?

123. Can you keep white shoes clean?

124. Do you believe in love at first sight?

125. Do you believe in true love?

126. Are you currently bored?

127. What makes you happy?

128. Would you change your name?

129. What your zodiac sign?

130. Do you like subway?

131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

133. Favourite lyrics right now?

134. Can you count to one million?

135. Dumbest lie you ever told?

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?

137. How tall are you?

138. Curly or Straight hair?

139. Brunette or Blonde?

140. Summer or Winter?

141. Night or Day?

142. Favourite month?

143. Are you a vegetarian?

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?

145. Tea or Coffee?

146. Was today a good day?

147. Mars or Snickers?

148. What’s your favourite quote?

149. Do you believe in ghosts?

150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?

[xdkitskieran69]

1. Who was the last person you held hands with?

2. Are you outgoing or shy?

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?

4. Are you easy to get along with?

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?

15. What good thing happened this summer?

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

17. Do you think there is life on other planets?

18. Do you still talk to your first crush?

19. Do you like bubble baths?

20. Do you like your neighbors?

21. What are you bad habits?

22. Where would you like to travel?

23. Do you have trust issues?

24. Favorite part of your daily routine?

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?

26. What do you do when you wake up?

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?

28. Who are you most comfortable around?

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?

30. Do you ever want to get married?

31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail?

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?

33. Spell your name with your chin.

34. Do you play sports? What sports?

35. Would you rather live without TV or music?

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?

37. What do you say during awkward silences?

38. Describe your dream girl/guy?

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?

40. What do you want to do after high school?

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?

43. Do you smile at strangers?

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?

46. What are you paranoid about?

47. Have you ever been high?

48. Have you ever been drunk?

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?

51. Ever wished you were someone else?

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?

53. Favourite makeup brand?

54. Favourite store?

55. Favourite blog?

56. Favourite colour?

57. Favourite food?

58. Last thing you ate?

59. First thing you ate this morning?

60. Ever won a competition? For what?

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?

62. Been arrested? For what?

63. Ever been in love?

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?

65. Are you hungry right now?

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?

67. Facebook or Twitter?

68. Twitter or Tumblr?

69. Are you watching tv right now?

70. Names of your bestfriends?

71. Craving something? What?

72. What colour are your towels?

72. How many pillows do you sleep with?

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?

75. Favourite animal?

76. What colour is your underwear?

77. Chocolate or Vanilla?

78. Favourite ice cream flavour?

79. What colour shirt are you wearing?

80. What colour pants?

81. Favourite tv show?

82. Favourite movie?

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?

85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?

87. First person you talked to today?

88. Last person you talked to today?

89. Name a person you hate?

90. Name a person you love?

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?

92. In a fight with someone?

93. How many sweatpants do you have?

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?

95. Last movie you watched?

96. Favourite actress?

97. Favourite actor?

98. Do you tan a lot?

99. Have any pets?

100. How are you feeling?

101. Do you type fast?

102. Do you regret anything from your past?

103. Can you spell well?

104. Do you miss anyone from your past?

105. Ever been to a bonfire party?

106. Ever broken someone’s heart?

107. Have you ever been on a horse?

108. What should you be doing?

109. Is something irritating you right now?

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?

111. Do you have trust issues?

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?

113. What was your childhood nickname?

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?

115. Do you play the Wii?

116. Are you listening to music right now?

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?

118. Do you like Chinese food?

119. Favourite book?

120. Are you afraid of the dark?

121. Are you mean?

122. Is cheating ever okay?

123. Can you keep white shoes clean?

124. Do you believe in love at first sight?

125. Do you believe in true love?

126. Are you currently bored?

127. What makes you happy?

128. Would you change your name?

129. What your zodiac sign?

130. Do you like subway?

131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

133. Favourite lyrics right now?

134. Can you count to one million?

135. Dumbest lie you ever told?

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?

137. How tall are you?

138. Curly or Straight hair?

139. Brunette or Blonde?

140. Summer or Winter?

141. Night or Day?

142. Favourite month?

143. Are you a vegetarian?

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?

145. Tea or Coffee?

146. Was today a good day?

147. Mars or Snickers?

148. What’s your favourite quote?

149. Do you believe in ghosts?

150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?  (via tchitsnathan)

Comment a number and I’ll answer!!

[coffeedepressionsoup]

Somebody Does Love | MYG - They Meet Again

Pairing - Yoongi x F!reader

Summary - "What is grief, if not love persevering?" Two people are in love but that is not enough because sometimes loving requires courage. This is the one where fate plays games and Sammy plays Cupid. Part 3 of Somebody Does Love.

Series Masterlist

Genre - fluff, strangers to lovers, eventual smut and angst

Word count - 2.2k

Warnings - lil swearing, SMOKING IS INJURIOUS TO HEALTH! nothing else I can think of

Ratings - 13+

Taglist: @majiiisstuff @starlighttaek8 @yoongrace @proudnoona

A/N - I have been in some of the worst times folks. Slipped back into depression. Lost people. Learnt lessons. Still very much in love with our honey boy though. The day I wrote this was one of the very bad days and I am typing this note through my hazy glasses because of these bloody tears. Excuse the typos, and grammar errors. Do not have the energy to proofread. Please be kind. Do like, comment and reblog. Thank you! Here goes nothing.

What was he thinking? Just how drunk was he? Why is he considering going? It’s just a jacket. He has dozens of those. Yoongi nervously bounced his legs as the rest of his body sat very still on the dressing room chair. Two different brushes - no one brush and a sponge - were being lightly tapped against his face now and a pair of hands were insistently tugging at his half-wet hair trying to style it. This was the last look for a magazine cover shoot. Even as he stared straight into the mirror, he thought back to a small cat and their rescuer. 

The next hour and forty minutes passed agonisingly slow. As soon as the director announced wrap, Yoongi was up and halfway out of the satin shirt he was in. By the time he reached the dressing room, he discarded it completely. Soojin, his manager, rushed in after him and asked as he shut the door, “You are really going?”

Yoongi placed the rings and earrings he had taken off on Soojin’s extended hands and nodded as he put his own t-shirt on.

“It is too public, Yoongi-ah…” the older gentleman tried to reason one last time as he saw the other scrub his face hastily off with a few makeup removal wipes.

“How will they know?” the rapper turned around, now having completed his outfit with a cap, a sunglass and a mask.

“They know you by the shape of your head and the size of your shoulder. You really want to risk it?”

“I am not risking anything. You are driving me there,” Yoongi said with a smirk evident in his tone. 

Soojin was left looking at the open door of the dressing room that now had the stylist and a couple of other members of the crew walk in. He handed over the jewellery he was holding from earlier, bid goodbye and jogged off to his car. 

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You were sat at the cafe sipping on your second latte of the evening. Tapping on your screen to check the time, you let out a yawn. 6:53. Well, maybe you could excuse an hour’s delay. Weekend traffic. Maybe he overslept? As much as you were grateful to Yong-ho, you were also hoping to see his face today. There are not many things you know about him. He has a deep, soothing voice. He smells nice. He is rich enough to casually wear designer jackets. He is kind, helpful and polite. Thoughtful. He is also quite patient. And his eyes. His eyes were beautiful. Solemn but with a shine that could make someone comfortable. 

Comfortable. Why did a stranger you met for half an hour register as comfortable to you? Your phone chimed. A message from Sammy. - Done yet? “Still waiting” - Wtf

- I don’t think he will show up then - I told you it’s a perfect fit for me

- Let me keep it

You chuckled at the series of messages.

“I will wait till 7:30”

- Then meet me directly at Hajoon’s place

- I will put out food for Ash

“Thanks, man. See ya soon” You closed the chat and smiled down at your wallpaper. Ash fast asleep on Woolfie’s back. The kitten and the dog had gotten along exceptionally well. After Woolfie peed on the kitchen floor when baby Ash hissed at him from Sammy’s lap on the first night, there had been no major issues. Ash had tried once to drink from the dog’s bowl the next day and had fallen into it. You fetched her out and dried her up with a hand towel, and the rest of it, Woolfie had licked clean. That night was the first time they napped together.

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Yoongi sat on the floor near the sofa where Yijeong and Hoseok were playing FC24. Hoseok was leading by 3 goals. Yijeong almost threw his controller at him in frustration, as the rest of the small group around them chuckled and watched the game progress. 

Yoongi also stared at the screen but his mind wandered far away from the game and his friends. His hands absent-mindedly tugged at the inseam of his jeans. 

As Soojin pulled up in front of the cafe earlier that evening, he could feel the sweat drip down his spine inside the air-conditioned car. He stared for a few seconds at the road in front of the car before turning his head towards the cafe you had agreed to meet at. As if it was an attempt to allow himself to catch a breath and just appear cool, just in his own head. A failed attempt at that. 

Even though he turned to look at the cafe from his car seat, he had not expected you to sit right at the window from where he was parked not even 4 whole metres away. Thankfully you were facing sideways, staring at something inside the cafe that Yoongi could not see. If only you were to turn towards the window to your left, your line of vision would directly collide with the tinted window of Yoongi’s car. 

Soojin coughed lightly from beside him. Yoongi only blinked a couple of times before he shut his slightly agape mouth and swallowed the breath that he didn’t know was stuck at his throat. He saw your face move down towards the table, presumably where your phone was. Phone. Why didn’t he exchange numbers back then? He knows why. Well, he could have given Soojin’s number at least. They could arrange for a more discreet pickup. 

Fuck the pickup. Yoongi had half forgotten that this meeting was about picking up the jacket he had lent you to wrap the rescued kitten in. Sure, that was the reason he gave Soojin that morning when he said he had to make a stop after the shoot. But for the whole weekend, his head had been clouded with your face. And your cooing voice at the kitten. And your bright smile as you introduced yourself. And the smell of your perfume and/or your shampoo that encircled you.

Looking forward to Sunday evening, he felt a tightness in his chest and stomach that could have been mistaken for trapped gas. But he knew this feeling all too well. It was anticipation. He has felt it for years ahead of each show or some big live interviews. He would also feel it once for someone he used to date. But that is what is odd. 

Sunday evening was not a date. Hell, he even felt creeped out by the fact that his feelings mirrored something akin to what he would feel like in anticipation of dates. Of course, it wasn’t even his intention to turn a simple transaction meeting into a date. But he had also not expected the sleepless nights that followed meeting you. And the half-written lyrics of a song on his phone. Nor did he expect the feeling of missing somebody he had exchanged less than 20 lines of dialogue with. 

When you had asked how to return his jacket, he almost wanted to say that you didn’t need to. Luckily, even within the first second, his mind deemed it too off-handed of a statement to make and he saw the cafe logo in his peripheral vision. Before he started overthinking and/or asked to exchange numbers, he pointed at the cafe and said, “How about we meet at that cafe on Sunday evening?”

And there he was. Outside the cafe. On Sunday evening. Almost having a panic attack in the safe confines of his car.

He could walk out of the car and into the cafe. He could walk up to you and say hello. He could make small talk for a couple of minutes. He could take back his jacket and thank you politely. He could then walk back out. 

He could. But he didn’t want to.

He did not want to make small talk with you. He wanted to know how you were doing. How your days have been. If you have spent the three nights just as sleeplessly. He also wanted to know how the kitten was doing. How the two of you were getting along. If you had any other pets. If yes, how many. If all of them were getting along. If the pets had another parent. He wanted to ask you so many things and he wanted to hear you say so much.

The cafe was not at its busiest. Even from where Yoongi was, he could see a few empty tables. He drew in a deep breath and placed his fingers lightly on the door, preparing to open it. 

It was at that very moment that you turned to your left, looking out of the cafe through the window you were sitting next to. You glanced down momentarily at what presumably again was your phone and looked back out the window. 6:18. You looked at people milling around the street outside the cafe. 

But to Yoongi, you were looking right at where he was. The concept of his tinted glass windows disappeared from his comprehension as he (seemingly) held your gaze and fluttered one of his hands over Soojin’s arm, urging him to drive off. Alert as ever, the elder man started driving promptly. Yoongi “held” your gaze for as long as he could till he bumped his head against the car window, closing his eyes, inhaling and exhaling in quick succession trying to even his breathing.

He slowly slumped back down against the passenger seat of the car and unclenched the hand that he did not realise until now was clamping down on one of his knees. He stared ahead at the Sunday evening Seoul traffic, shivering a little from feeling some of his sweat dry up. Soojin turned to him at the next red light and said, “Don’t worry, Joon will understand.”

Nothing more was said in the whole car ride up to his friend’s place. Soojin dropped him off and went back to drop the car off at Yoongi’s building before heading to his own place. Yoongi had planned to drive back home with Hobi. They lived in the same building after all. 

Joon will understand. Joon will understand?Joon will not even know that the jacket he gifted his hyung last year was missing unless Yoongi told him so.

He wasn’t thinking about Joon. Nor was he thinking about the jacket. Of course, he wasn’t.

He was thinking about your slightly impatient gaze. A loose bun sitting lightly at the nape of your neck. Your hands that you briefly rested your face on. Your face. You. He was thinking about you. Like he had for more than the past two days. 

He was thinking about where you were now. What you were doing. What you were thinking. What you decided to do with the jacket. If you threw it at a random trash or kept it with you. If you were cursing him. If you were complaining about him to a friend. 

He felt a cramp in his stomach that is usually indicative of nervous diarrhoea. He felt like a dick. For having stood you up, yes. But he was also disappointed at having chickened out. Maybe if he had not waited in his car at all, it would have gone over smoothly. Maybe if you hadn’t looked out at him (his general direction) he would not have freaked out. He tried to tell himself that it was too crowded. He was too tired. And not a coward because of his stupid, random, huge ass crush on Y/N Y/LN. Someone he only met for half an hour. And spent almost all of it watching her bond with a stray kitten by her side.

He looked up as he felt a slight kick on his back. He realised he was staring at a static screen and that his friends had all gathered over the pizzas that had now arrived. He had not noticed when even though he was the closest to the door. He got up and was making his way towards the rest of the group when the doorbell rang.

Yoongi stopped and turned around. He was the closest to the door after all. None of the others seemed to bother reacting to it anyway. He walked to the door and froze as he saw the person on the ring machine. He knew he was supposed to press a single button to unlock the door. He knew which button it was. But his head and his hands refused to cooperate. He stood frozen for a couple of seconds, staring at the screen in front of him, until the bell rang again.

Yoongi thought he heard this ring in a more muffled way as if it was coming from far away. 

It wasn’t until the third ring that someone else left the group, half a slice of pizza stuffed in his mouth and half in his hand walked towards the door, that Yoongi could hear everything normally again. 

“Must be Y/N,” Hajoon called out, patting Yoongi on the back, and reaching over his shoulder to open the door.

After the small beep, you walked in, almost bumping into someone’s chest.

[strawberry-skies-xx]

13, 20, & 22 for the fic asks! fic i choose for 22, of course, that fucked up girl <3 and the mori dazai fic w the matcha tea....both fics have me by. CHOKEHOLD

*walks in 2 days late w iced coffee* that reblog spree on your blog is bc i couldn't find the og post btw and i had the (naive) hope you didn't reblog shit at the speed i did

13. Do you prefer writing multi-chapter fics or single-part fics? Do you prefer reading multi-chapter fics or single-part fics?

i prefer reading AND writing multi-chapter fics, bc its so much fun to explore stuff. however. The Horrors. i can dream about writing a multi-chapter fic all i want but it doesnt mean ill ever finish it (rest in piece my fleabag fyozai fic that's infamous on my bsd server bc i never shut up about it. also the fyozai betrayal AU fic. pensive emoji.)

20. Which fic have you put the most work into? Which fic have you put the least work into?

you make miette search through 84 published works for this...

the fic i'd say i've done the most research on is this one (mafia Dazai training Akutagawa) but the fic i've put the most work into being really good and me liking it has to be this one. its not BSD, but its a character study of a guy from another fandom and his interest in death and passive suicidality. i spent 3 days postponing every single other obligation other than food and just sat in bed writing this. 4th day i did nothing but chores and then i didnt write anything else for a week lol

least work is hard bc i have a philosophy that i can do whatever i want forever so i Will just write something in an hour and post it with no research, all pure self-indulgence. but i'll use a fic i should have done research on: this one. i really should've planned that out better. idk if anyone still follows me for httyd or has read that fic of mine but i do plan on rewriting it someday

22. Have you used any symbolism in [insert fic]? What does it represent?

OH boy.

so. fucked-up girl fic actually doesn't Have much real symbolism, only a couple remarks on my headcanons for various things.

today he had to eat an apple whole because he could not pick up a knife-

this one is easy, referencing dazai's suicidality and the fact he is trying. just a slight reference to him actively changing/being unable to do something, and also his issues with food.

He starts targeting.

Dazai is very, very still.

Atsushi backtracks so fast that he stumbles over his words, forgetting entirely Dazai’s contradictory explanations,

little things about dazai's manipulation in everything. boy can't admit shit. he's very roundabout with admitting anything close to himself (why i hc fyodor is so good for him, because they can trade those vague references back and forth and understand each other) and a trait i assign to him is saying vulnerable things in as few words as possible. he doesn't explain stuff.

Dazai’s body aches, and he turns, walks over to his desk, sits down. His clothes constrict.

gender issues but also, as mentioned in my comment on your fic, i hc dazai just hates his body. he has to shower with the lights off sometimes, can get dressed without looking at himself once. he very much dislikes perceiving the fact he has a body.

The ADA thinks that they’re dating. Him and Yosano. 

not symbolism or a hc but this was the premise of the entire fic. the agency thinking dazai and yosano were dating when really dazai just had severe gender envy

“Zai.”

little hc! yosano specifically uses this nickname for dazai when affectionate. atsushi and kunikida don't use any actual nicknames derived from his name; chuuya uses this nickname sometimes; ranpo uses this nickname somewhere between chuuya and yosano bc ranpo is putting in the least effort to get his attention lol

The conclusion is obvious. Dazai should explain that’s not what he means, but he can’t get his mouth to work to speak honestly. 

this whole conversation was the biggest indicator of dazai being unable to elaborate/saying things in as few words as possible. he's not a pathological liar, i just think sometimes it is physically painful to have to elaborate vulnerable things verbally for him. e.g. "it's because you're a woman" and yosano having to debate the fact dazai could be going after her, dazai Knowing what kind of conclusion she'd jump to immediately As a woman, and yet he just cannot explain it further because it is vulnerability. HENCE why i like him and fyodor, because fyodor can make those kinds of connections as quick as dazai can.

"Women are really pretty~”

not a hc or symbolism but. Boy why do you talk about women so much and yet date none of them. almost actively make yourself undesirable to them. Sir. My guy. i know what you are

“There’s a word for it?”

special lil hc i have. the mafia is very open and accepting because they simply have bigger priorities than who's kissing who. mori simply does not give a shit if his agents are consorting or if his lead agent goes from a girl to a guy. he won't provide monetary support and unless it's physically disabling he won't make exceptions to rules, but if he's told that someone's pronouns have changed or whatever he'll go "cool" and change the name/pronouns in all of the system, start using them, and be done with it. his only concern is performance and as far as he cares, sex and gender are irrelevant. (on that note, harrassment isn't tolerated because why are you harrassing them for being gay when you can harrass them for the multiple enemies they didn't kill last mission. cmon now.)

this also comes with the caveat that the kids raised in the mafia aren't really educated on it. they're taught normal class subjects, e.g. math, english, etc. and they're taught mafia protocol, and they're allowed to get their own reading material, but the mafia puts in as much effort to teach them about queer people as they do to teach them about heterosexual people. (they do get sex ed tho, which is basic as ever, and which dazai is a whole menace during)

and dazai, obviously, would not really be that interested in either to read about. being brought in so young, i think he was never really taught bias against queer people, so when he had the revelation that he liked chuuya he was just kinda. oh ok. and when he has the feelings about his body that he doesn't like it, he has much bigger priorities (namely the quickest way to die) than figuring out whatever the hell that is.

so it ends up that dazai just kinda is queer and has no idea what it is. he knows he hates his body and he knows he likes chuuya, probably has some surface level knowledge of gay/bi/lesbian/etc. but otherwise no, he's never sought out specifically to figure out the terms for what he's feeling. he actually really hates perceiving himself in any way lol

He still looks like himself,

this little bit: he hates perceiving himself in any way, but he still wants to be him. he doesn't want to change his name or his reputation or whatever else, he doesn't want to be a different person. he just wants to be a dazai that he likes.

It would look wrong be inconvenient for him, and take so much effort. Just… so much. So much that he can’t handle. Managing himself is hard regularly - adding on this, whatever it is, would be biting off more than he could chew. 

there's a river called de nile-

dazai is denying the fact he thinks being a woman would look wrong because of his years of being in a masculine body like he is, hence the calluses mention. but he also is right, that he wouldn't be able to upkeep it. he has to be in a better spot/it has to be something very slow and gradual for him to be able to keep it up long enough to maintain a desirable appearance. he's sorta using it as an excuse to not do it but also he just doesn't want to put in that much effort into it.

now for the matcha fic!

Very big hc and symbolism for this fic: Dazai's ability.

it is an ability nullifier, and i stand by the idea that abilities have some kind of effect on their user and are somewhat sentient. Atsushi's tiger, for one, is not only a transformation but the shape of the ability inside him, and Kyouka's Demon Snow is a whole being as the ability itself.

so for Dazai, he described it once as an "anti-ability." which. what the hell. whump beams him.

i have the hc that Dazai's ability makes him cold because most ability users can feel their ability hummign beneath their skin. most abilities are warm, alive, and it's like a constant low electric current or adrenaline rushing through them, as omnipresent as a heartbeat or breath. just a fact of being alive is that feeling. so then: when Dazai nullifies other people's ability, they can Feel the absence of it, they can feel very empty and very cold. when Dazai is the host of that nullification ability, it's just that electric warmth reversed. an icy cold, all the time, because NLH is a black hole as opposed to a sun. (all my metaphors relate NLH more to an icy lake, but that's the dichotomy)

i don't ascribe Dazai's emptiness entirely to NLH, but i do think it contributes and that he has a complex about the relationship between his own issues with emotion, empathy, and the fact NLH lives inside him.

and that cold gets much worse whenever Dazai actually does nullify an ability depending on how strong it is/how much is being used at the time, therefore the remark about him making a science on how bad it'll affect him, and that scene about him being overwhelmed by nullifying Chuuya's ability; he miscalculated, and was caught off guard by NLH activating so strongly, esp given his injuries and physical weakness already in that moment

and another little HC: Dazai's hinted to have been in an even worse place before Mori and abilities are said to be activated from trauma. so i like to hc Dazai's ability as activating from the result of being tortured with abilities, from a deep desire to stop the torture, also in some kind of lab setting. and from there, Dazai escaped, and Mori got this very damaged child.

so then, through the matcha fic, Dazai latches onto it because the warmth of the tea chases away the cold of NLH.

another thread through this fic: Mori and Dazai's relationship. i think Mori was trying to keep Dazai alive as an asset to the mafia, and that he never... regretted? bringing him in as much as wished Dazai had never shown up at his doorstep in the first place, because Mori sees the value of his skills way too much to regret using them. but Mori also knows kids aren't supposed to do what Dazai is doing. and he also sees the emptiness in Dazai and all his general issues. so it's this very messy tangle of like. Mori can't care for him like a father because, yknow, mafia boss and Mori himself also has manipulation and control issues, but also he's much fonder of him than most others, even Chuuya. no one else would have been able to get away with all the shenanigans Dazai inflicts on him (that kid bullies mori so hard. it's very comical). Mori is simultaneously training him and raising him in a life-or-death environment for them both and it's so messy.

“I’ll make us all some hot tea!” Atsushi raises an eyebrow, skeptical. “Are you sure you won’t… burn the Agency down, Dazai?”

little note here: i think dazai curates an image of incompetency specifically because of his competency in the mafia. obviously everyone there knows he's actually competent, but he hides just how competent he is. partially to get up to his own shenanigans hiding his mafia connections and whatever else, but also partially because he doesn't want to be known as something like the demon prodigy again.

when it's serious, they know he can hold his own (prison arc) but otherwise. he is faking so much incompetency.

“I’ll make a deal - if you manage to make matcha tea as well as I do, I can get you your own expensive set for the holidays~”

ok listen. listen. the slap that dazai gave atsushi lives rent free in my mind because of the moment of hesitation just before it. everyone villainizes dazai for slapping atsushi while entirely ignoring the brief hesitation just before it.

dazai was both trained (as an agent) and raised (as a teenager) by mori. and oda was not a very good dad either. he doesn't have the best role model, for one. but he's also very self-aware when he's older and i think he can separate "father" mori and "mafia boss" mori in his actions. he knows when mori was trying to raise him and he knows when mori was trying to train him.

now. now guess what dazai is to atsushi. a trainer. and dazai is still taking the place of someone older and more experienced teaching atsushi not only combat skills but also life skills/growing-up skills. and we all saw how dazai got with akutagawa; that was an environment conducive to that kind of treatment, where that was being encouraged.

now the agency doesn't condone physical violence and dazai knows that. and he is very clearly trying to be a good person like oda asked him to. so, with that moment of hesitation, he clearly did not want to slap atsushi. but someone else's post words this better: he got complacent at the agency, forgot mori's ruthlessness, and with the threat against atsushi and release of Q he remembered he couldn't be so complacent and began to slip back into the old mafia thinking as a way to survive.

and with atsushi breaking down and not listening to him, the agency threatened by mori and Q, a threat that made even dazai flinch, i hc he got overwhelmed, knew there was one method that got guaranteed results, knew the agency didn't condone it, but was overwhelmed enough that he just. lashed out in a way he knew guaranteed would work, and would get atsushi to listen to him.

so . very long rant just to say that i think dazai is fighting, a bit, to balance his experience of being trained-and-raised, with him training-and-raising atsushi, but he knows the difference clearly between the two and so he'll cherrypick actions like the deal mori made with the matcha tea.

deep breath. it's been like an hour and a half. jfc. anyway there's your answers hsfdbhsdf i have many many thoughts on dazai

ty for asking!

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Monstober Day 10: Dragon (Yungi)

Day 10/13

Summary: Mingi never expected to fall for a dragon

CW: None

not beta read

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This was it. Mingi’s last moments of freedom before being sacrificed to the dragon that haunts his town. Clad in his white tunic and brown trousers, he shared tearful goodbyes with his parents before climbing into the rickety old boat that would slowly drift him towards his fate. 

A roar startles Mingi and he jerks, the boat rocking slightly. In the sky, high above him, is a mighty golden dragon. Its large wings cut through the clouds as it descends slowly, making several wide circles. Mingi watches, his heart beating wildly, as the dragon gets closer and closer. The beast's large talons grip either side of the small boat and before Mingi can process how large the dragon is up close, the boat is being lifted from the water. 

Mingi screams, tightly closing his eyes and gripping onto the wooden boat for dear life as he is taken high into the sky. He can feel mist hit his face as they break through the clouds and up this high, it’s a little hard to breathe. Whether from the adrenaline leaving his body, or the lack of oxygen flowing into his lungs, it isn’t long before Mingi’s eyes drift shut and he falls asleep.

Yunho hovers over the ground, gently setting the boat onto the stone before landing himself. His bones crunch and shift as he transforms back to his humanoid form. His new bride is still fast asleep when he turns to look at him and so Yunho scoops him up and carries him to his… no, their bed. He gently sets his bride down and covers him with a blanket of fur for warmth. 

Yunho sits on the edge of the bed, watching his bride snuggle further into the furs, and smiles. He traces the back of his knuckles against his bride’s cheek and jaw bone, noticing a small beauty mark under his eye. His eyes take in the sight of long lashes fanning over sculpted cheeks, a strong nose that leads to plush, pink lips parted slightly in sleep. 

Yunho likes this bride.

Mingi wakes up slowly, his ears picking up little sounds around him before he can will his eyes to open. When he finally manages to peel his eyelids back, he stares up at a stone ceiling. Orange hues dance on the stone as a fire crackles within the fireplace on the opposite wall from Mingi. 

He sits up in the large bed and does a self evaluation. Shirt still on? Check. Pants still on? Also check. Any soreness in places he wouldn’t normally be sore in? No. 

“That’s promising,” Mingi says out loud, to himself. 

The sound of a door opening grabs his attention, his eyes darting to a large wooden door as it slowly opens and reveals… the most beautiful man Mingi has ever seen. Well, man-dragon. The man has short warm golden brown hair that falls into his chocolate colored eyes. Horns in that same golden color sprout from his hairline and curl back. Shimmering golden scales litter his cheeks like clumps of stars. More scales cover his forearms like vambraces, blending into the skin of his hands. His fingertips and claw-like nails are dusted black, as if he had been playing in the soot of the fireplace. 

He’s tall too, taking up most of the doorway with just his body. Mingi can just make out the tops of two wings behind the man-dragon. 

“You’re awake.. how did you sleep?” The man asks, striding into the room and sitting on the edge of the bed. 

“Um.. I slept fine…” Mingi stutters. The man grabs Mingi’s hand, lifting it from where it rests in his lap. He brings the hand up to his lips and places a gentle kiss against Mingi’s knuckles. 

“I’m glad to hear that…” the man smiles brightly. “My name is Yunho… May I have the pleasure of knowing yours?” 

Mingi swallows the lump in his throat. “My n-name is Mingi..” 

“A beautiful name, for a beautiful man.”

Life with Yunho isn’t horrible. In fact, Mingi has never been happier. Yunho charishes him and respects him for who Mingi is. He goes out of his way to get things for Mingi, he makes Mingi’s favorite foods and even takes him flying on dragon back. Flying with Yunho is like nothing Mingi has ever experienced, once he figured out how to adjust his breathing so that he doesn’t pass out again. It’s freeing, to be above the clouds. And on colder nights, when the chill cuts through even the thickest of blankets, Yunho will pull Mingi against his chest and wrap his wings around him. On warmer days, they fly to a breezy field and Mingi reads his favorite books to Yunho as the dragon dozes on Mingi’s lap or runs his hands through the human’s hair.

To say that they had fallen in love was an understatement.

The one and only problem was how isolating it felt. Sure, Mingi had Yunho, but he missed his friends and family. He wished for them to meet Yunho and love him the way he does. When Mingi had first asked to travel back to town, Yunho had said no. Later confessing that he was afraid that Mingi would run. But now, after Mingi had shown Yunho time and time again that he would return to the dragon and proven his deep love for him, Yunho agreed. 

They landed in a meadow on the outskirts of town, Yunho telling Mingi to go on ahead and that he would find him shortly. Mingi smiled at Yunho, his eyes crinkling in the corners, and kissed him goodbye.

The reunion with his parents is tearful.

“I can’t believe it! My boy.. My darling boy is home!” His mother cries against him. Mingi wraps his arms around her, lifting her and spinning her around happily. He sets her down and she cups his face with her hands, “I’m never letting you out of my sight again.”

Mingi’s smile falters slightly, “Ma.. I’m not staying…”

“What do you mean?” She asks, her smiling dropping completely. ‘You can’t seriously be considering going back to the beast.” 

“He isn’t a beast mom… He’s actually really sweet, he cares for me” 

Mingi’s mom shakes her head, “It’s put a spell on you, hasn’t it?” she accuses. 

“No.. he hasn’t. Ma-”

“I won’t hear it, Mingi. You are staying here and we’ll get the spell thing taken care of.”

Two weeks. 

Mingi has been locked in his parents home like a prisoner for two weeks.The window in his bedroom is barred from the outside, courtesy of his father, and his parents alternate sleeping on the couch to prevent him from sneaking out the front door at night. For the first week, his parents call every priest, witch, warlock, and shaman they can to 'cure' him of the spell they believe Yunho placed on him, but after countless 'failed' attempts, his parents resign themselves to 'waiting it out'.

He spends his days pleading with his parents to let him go, that Yunho is a good guy and if only they would meet him they would know that too. Every plea falls on deaf ears and dismissals. His nights are spent staring out the barred window at the night sky, searching for the silhouette of his dragon… of Yunho. If he isn’t watching the sky, he’s crying silent tears until he can’t keep his eyes open for a second longer. 

Mingi dreams of Yunho. Of his smile, his laugh, his eyes. Of their time together and how he’d still be with the dragon if only he hadn’t asked to visit his family. He dreams of a future he’ll likely never know, a future with Yunho.

On the eve of Mingi’s third week trapped, Mingi spots something in the woods. No, not something… Someone. 

Mingi shimmies his window open the little amount it can and calls out. “Yunho! Yunho, I'm here!” His dragon doesn’t respond verbally, but his head snaps in Mingi’s direction and then suddenly, Yunho is running. 

Mingi watches as Yunho rounds the side of his house. Mingi steps out into the living room just as the front door splinters from Yunho kicking it in. He barely registers his mother’s yelling as the rest of the world falls away, leaving just him and Yunho. 

Yunho is panting wildly and his eyes are dark. His body is tense but visibly relaxes when he realizes that Mingi is unharmed. Mingi’s feet are moving on their own, taking long strides towards Yunho. The dragon meets him halfway, wrapping his arms around Mingi protectively. 

“I thought i’d never see you again,” Mingi cries into Yunho’s chest. 

“There isn’t a place on this earth they could hide you that I wouldn’t find,” Yunho says into Mingi’s hair. 

Mingi lifts his head, looking at Yunho, “Take me home, Yunho.”

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A Transcript of my journal notes while reading A Court of Thorns & Roses - the book - for the first time (circa six months ago)

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random disclaimer: pirate sjm. these are my opinions - don't like, don't read, and keep it pushing. also happy pride!

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book one: a court of thorns & roses

feyre is pragmatic and realistic about her chances - she has to be. it's winter & she's the one hunting for food to sustain her family

evidently dislikes fae for the mistreatment of humans - makes sense

okay elain and nesta....don't seem great but considering the inherent trauma of poverty & how out of it their dad is - i don't blame them.

elain somehow manages to be a bit 'naive' and does not pick up on signals much according to feyre...is that sarah's way of saying elain is neurodivergent? | nesta is just mad (that's fair) at how their cards have fallen

what did feyre's mom make her promise? "Stay together & care for them" to your youngest is wild.

Religion Mention: Children/Word of the Blessed (they still kinda f with faeries)

Okay so the wolf was fae...Feyre fucked up | large like a horse, feline body, wolfe like head, elk horns (the fae that came to avenge the wolf)

Feyre has balls, I'll give her that (and she & Nesta are capable of more than just snapping at one another - deciding to protect Elain for example)

I think we've reached the spring court now (chp 6) | the descriptions are nice.

And that's Tamlin, ladies & gents. He can shapeshift apparently, wears a mask that covers brow to mouth that gold & emerald | nice green eyes too, duh.

Lucien is here now! (have heard great things about him). Red hair, brown eye with a gold orb in the other, bronze fox mask | emissary of the spring court

Tamlin don't play - straight to business, just, and kind (enough to the chick who killed Andras). the fact that he didn't just kill feyre like the treaty would allow is proof of that alone. also he's making sure feyre's family is being cared for.

Lucien is a sassy bitch - love that for him // wonder if he's a good emissary?

Feyre's mom died of typhus when she was eight

Lucien already knew Feyre was going to ask him to talk to Tamlin about finding another way to satisfy the treaty and let her go.

Seems that high fae are not bound by the compulsions/powers of 'lower' fae (cleaning compulsion, answering questions if trapped - like suriel, etc)

Something's in the wood // is it the curse?// No, its the Bogge - only real when you look at it.

Oh shit?! Feyre's dad came into fae Prythian? No way...how did he even... | that's not her dad is it? has to be an illusion (he moves too fast, seems odd) - yeah, it was an illusion.

Tamlin's last born, meant to be a foot soldier, not high lord

Puca = like sirens - show you what you want so they can lure you in then eat you

She's having nightmares about killing Andras (that sucks I guess)

Okay - Tam & Lucien are arguing. Is Tam not enforcing the borders of the Spring Court enough? Tam seems scared of being like his father.

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Creation Story (chp 13): Disembodied female hands pour out a cauldron of golden sparkly liquid, that liquid creates the world (Prythian & beyond) | First mention of the mountain

Lots of miscommunication/lacking in-depth dialouge/also Feyre he's just trying to help

Stan Lucien - love a good 'I'm not telling you to do the thing while explaining how to do the thing' moment.

Alright - we're asking a suriel questions | Feyre knows now she can't leave (totally, utterly), and that Tam is high lord...I figured that one out a while ago...catch up girl

New Location Drop = Hybern, another fae kingdom - ruled by a king. Hostile towards humans (apparently the throne is made of their bones). King of Hybern dislikes the treaty (wants to enslave humans again - fuck you too bro). Infiltrated fae Prythian's courts to devise a plan but 50 years ago - one of his agents (the deceiver) disobeyed...

Naga = normal mythological description | vicious fighters. mean

Ooh - he's progressive (relatively). Anti enslavement of humans & against tyranny. Stan a leftist king!!...well, high lord.

Oh shit, a fae from the summer court was dumped over the border - with their wings ripped off. Geez...(Luc vomited and ran out - I get it)(Feyre and Tam comforts the injured, he dies)(chp 17)

Lucien = youngest of seven sons to High Lord of Autumn/didn't care for fighting for the title - traveled, made friends, fell in love with a 'lesser' fae woman.

His father had her killed while Luc watched/ so he abandoned the Autumn Court. Eager to eliminate more competition, 3 of his brothers came to kill him - Luc killed on, Tam killed the other, one went back - prob Eris...heard a bit about him.

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Feyre was eleven when dad lost his fortune/fourteen when started hunting cause money ran out

We're getting along now | Feyre sees the gallery & paints, falling into a rhythm.

Alright Tamlin's dad & older brothers (two) were terrible and enslaved humans

What's an Attor?

Calanmai? Fire Night? I'm guessing this is some faerie circle shit. Tamlin says it helps renew the land's magic in the upcoming year. Feyre left the house after Tamlin said to stay in her rooms while Calanmai transpires.

I think we might have just met Rhysand?

Hes being a suave asshole (that seems par for the course)

Luc found her (thank God) and is dragging her back while berating her

Well Tamlin is high of the leftover magic from the great rite/ He bites Feyre...umm blow the whistle, can we get the council to decide if I like that?/ she slaps him - good.

Aww, Feyre painted something for Tamlin

Urisk = a kind of fae, Alis is urisk

Solstices = day and night are equal//other courts can relax and just be.

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Amarantha's (associated with Rhys)/ Rhysand is a fucking asshole - isn't he supposed to be entreating with them?? | casually mentally violating Feyre's mind too, like??! - I'm supposed to eventually like him?!

Tamlin...Tamlin I get why you're sending Feyre away but damn...bro...a little more emotional intelligence on our FMC's part and we could have broken this damn curse.

Nesta is the freaking GOAT - she managed to not fall to Tamlin's glamor, went looking for Feyre with the help of that assasin for hire chick in dead fucking winter. love that we're getting more of her personality now - the sisters are sistering y'all.

Rhysand took the fake name Feyre gave (Clare Beddor, was apparently one of Nesta's friends...) & burnt their manor to the ground. no one survived.

Feyre goes back to Spring Court - the manor's been ransacked - Amarantha is High Queen, she was an emissary from Hybern & its most lethal general | hates humans cause her sister Clythia was killed by her human lover, Jurian, during the war...am I supposed to feel bad for the slave master fae here...or? I mean her death was brutal as fuck, sure, but hey...it's for freedom |so Amarantha wants to take over the human's land in Prythian

She keeping Jurian in a ring...somebody free that man.

These trials are bullshit, the answer to the riddle is love (if you could read, you'd know this Feyre) and i don't think I want to know what Amarantha is doing to Tam to have him like this...it's fucking creepy.

These trials are bullshit, the answer to the riddle is love (if you could read, you'd know this Feyre) and i don't think I want to know what Amarantha is doing to Tam to have him like this...it's fucking creepy.

So...rhys killed clare beddor, tortured her mercilessly, knowing damn well he could just not done that...i know all the high lords at 'low power' right now but you work for the bitch...you can trick her and let the innocent person go. bro, this shit is crazy.

Lucien, you're a real one, he knew he'd get punished but he's helping Feyre as best he can anyway. that's bestie for real

her arm is broken, clean through the skin, i'm assuming it's pure adrenaline and shock that's keeping her alive after fighting the middengard.

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Yo wtf? Rhysand, what the actual fuck? Nigga came in here to offer help in the most sick way possible? What the fuck are we twisting her broken arm for, asshat? You already said you know she's dying, you know she's going to take the deal...why are you fucking torturing her?

my girl just sold her fucking soul, bro. i mean at least she bargained the two weeks down to a week...but the tattoo is infuriating and that eye in her palm is definitely going to be spying on her. on god fuck rhysand....i need tamlin to run this nigga through with a sword, a hundred times.

lady of autumn coming through to help with a stupid trap of a chore. thanks girlie

get this man off my page. i don't to see him anymore. i don't give a shit about his beast form or him helping with the lentils. fuck you rhys

oh my god, what the fuck...i don't like this. you don't need to bring her with you rhysand, and what is this dress? that shit is barely a scarf...does sjm think this shit is cute? because it's not. I don't like this...

she said no to fae wine. he makes her drink the fae wine. lucien won't even tell her the bulk of what happened while she was under the influence...

this shit goes on for three months...i'm tired of this. I don't think I do this anymore. there's no need for this. he's just being a sadistic prick. you'd think the guy who has to sleep with amarantha against his will wouldn't sexually assault somebody...but hey...

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problems that could be solved if feyre could fucking read, no. i stopped counting a while back. free lucien bro, they're really getting his ass back to back on this shit.

this is utter misery. i'm tired, are you tired because i'm tired...and so is feyre. her ass is depressed now. honestly I just gotta lock in for the next five chapters and not write until i get something good.

the third task is heartbreakingly simple and yet so incredibly tortorous...nah bro, this is crazy. she can't stab these people...nvm mind she's stabbing them &...tam has a stone heart, shit still gotta hurt though (wonder how that works, did he shift his heart to be that way?)

oh, well...i think i should've been expecting amarantha to kill feyre after figuring out the riddle. that makes sense. tam killed the bitch right back (luc in with the assist because yeah). my boy is crying and rocking feyre's body...it can't do this shit bro. i'm crying in the club.

i think feyre's bargain tattoo with rhys is what's allowing her to see what's happening even though she's dead. rip to a real one, she was annoying at times, but not a completely terrible protagonist.

oh i spoke to soon the other high lords are giving fey drops of their power in thanks for what she did. a favor for a favor i suppose...even rhysand...somebody get his ass of my page, please!

fuck this shit, man...tam bby, i'm glad you finally get to say - "“I love you,” he whispered, and kissed me as he laid his hand on my heart."

i'm sorry fey's turning is giving bella in breaking dawn. no shade...just yeah. but hey, she's immortal now, cool beans.

they finally get to be together, we gotta work through this trauma though...i doubt their relationship will be the same regardless but in order to move on together & still be healthy...we need some therapy here - both couples and single.

rhys is still fucking here. the talk is pleasant, sort of, ig...and the fact that I already know that fey and rhys are mates is ruining the little stumble back into the shadows exit he gives when the bond snaps into place. fuck, come on, i really like feylin...can't we keep them? please?

and we're back at the manor. we're home.

welp, that's that. thanks for reading!

[fox0war]

For Veri:

Appearance 7, 9

Objects 3

Food and Drink 5, 10

Weather and Nature 3, 5, 6, 12, 13, 15

Community and Relationships 9, 18

Mind, Body, and Soul 1

Hobbies and Activities 12

I know this is a lot but it was a long ask game 😅

It is a long ask game! And luckily I just had some fun book reading time to stretch my brain after the alien day parade so i'm coming in swinging!

Appearance: -7, Is there someone your character tries to look similar to? In part, as a sign of her barely existent loyalty, I'd say she tries to make herself look like Holt Helms, the leader of the SevTri (Who... tortured her and then took her in on their side), wearing things that fit his color scheme as some sign of loyalty, even if she IS only loyal for the sake of revenge and disagrees with everything Holt is doing. -9, What does your character smell like? Great question! One I never considered too. I'd say she has pretty good hygiene for one, so she probably has some smell about her like flowers thanks to the soaps she uses, but some bronze/copper/other metallic scents tossed in too because of her cybernetics and the metals she wears on most of her outfits. Flowers and metal, mm...

Objects: -3, What type of object is likely to catch your character's attention? I feel like a lot of things would catch her interest honestly, but old-world tech is always fascinating to her (Before Earth got... destroyed, Yeahh...), and I feel like she'd totally have a case of crowbrain, aka, loving shiny things.

Food and Drink: -5, Does your character consider eating fun? Not usually, no, I don't think she would. Unless it were a special occasion, or some special kind of food, I think a lot of the joys of eating have vanished for her. Kinda hard to enjoy eating when it's less of a meal with people you care about and more of just, fuel. -10, What is a childhood meal your character cherishes? Not specifically a meal, but I'd say Lefse is a major comfort food that comes from her childhood. She rarely has it anymore, mostly focusing on whatever rations she can find that are high nutrient and... not prepared by Myze (she doesn't trust him). But sometimes she'll indulge herself with some Lefse, prepared in various ways depending on how she's feeling that day (Sweet go-to is probably chocolate and fruits while her savory preference is some meats and cheeses)

Weather and Nature: -3, What season would your character say they're most similar to? I don't think she'd bother with such things, but if forced to pick an answer, she'd probably pick Winter. Cruel, brutal, that's all she thinks she is, something that brings death without care. Whether or not that's accurate? Well. I think we know better. But that's what she'd pick for herself. -5, Has your character ever had an animal phase? The wording on this one confused me honestly, but I'm going to take this as in a phase where she was interested in animals. In which case, yes! She became fascinated with animals for a brief time when she was younger, but that fascination quickly petered out in favor of three others, People, Plants, and Tech -6, Would your character enjoy sky gazing? See, she's usually off planet, so she doesn't get much "sky" gazing time per se, but stargazing? Oh she loves it, if she were a planet bound person she'd probably love sky gazing, but as it is, she's staring into the cosmos with every trip she takes. -12, Could your character survive in the wilderness on their own for a week or more? Oh, for sure. She knows what plants are safe, she knows how to locate and clean water, she knows how to make shelter, she can easily hunt and cook, she'd do great in the wilderness. The true question is, how did she get stranded for a week without being recovered really fast? -13, What element best represents your character? See now this is interesting, I often refer to her in terms of fire, her spark, her flame, unable to be snuffed. But honestly? As much as I ADORE fire as a metaphor for her... I think Earth is the more fitting element. Tough, blunt, capable of great harm with little effort, but the edges may crumble, and plants may grow between its cracks, and it can nurture if the time is right, if the chance is given. She has mostly sworn off current chances, but she still cares deeply for a certain kid she helped rescue awhile back, all is not lost... -15, Is there a creature that scares your character? People. Any Sapient species. Not because they're actually that frightening, she's perfectly capable of taking down some of the most powerful of foes, but because they're actively capable of malice and have the tools to be more than just, annoying. I know I know boring answer, but seriously! The only creatures to ever hurt her are the ones who think just as much as her. For a less "humans are scary" sounding answer, Space Krakens are pretty scary too. (They're called Charybdi if you're speaking human languages, Kivelet if you're speaking Xaouki-Auouki, and Lo'Bel if you're a De'Thral)

Community and Relationships: -9, Where is your character's comfort place? Admittedly, she doesn't have much of one. She's always a bit... on the move, and she has a bad habit of rejecting nice things, refusing to let her guard down. But... she likes quiet spaces, ones with plush interiors where she just... gets left alone. Comfortable, silent, nobody there to hurt her. -18, What is your character's favorite form of affection? For the record, major stray cat vibes, she doesn't let anyone give her affection. Hopefully one day she'll have someone to unwind with, but besides in special cases, she won't allow anyone to give her affection. Besides that point? Physical touch. The warmth of another pressed against her body, uncaring of her scars when she takes off her mask, accepting enough to simply cradle her close and allow her to let her guard down. But she doesn't trust anyone to that point, not yet, and most she'll lean against someone's shoulder, but hey! Gotta take what you can get with stray cats, and she sure has the mentality of one.

Mind, Body, and Soul: -1, What is a habit your character has that others might find cute? Generally? Veri is a very scary person, we all know that. But most people don't know what's behind her mask, so when they see her tilting her head as she eats something she slipped under/drinks something through a straw, it can admittedly come off kinda cute! People just love when other people/critters just... tilt their heads to the side, it's considered cute! She does this because one of her cheeks are fucked up so she struggles to eat if she keeps her head straight, but most people don't know that.

Hobbies and Activities: -12, What kind of music does your character enjoy? I imagine she isn't the most picky person in the world when it comes to music, very genre flexible, you know? I do think she'd prefer some slightly more intense songs though, head explosion type beat. Because your thoughts cannot bother you if you're exploding your skull with good tunes! She'd also totally be down for any songs about revenge, because mood.

[koukiyoarchives]

「 ✦ oc questions ๋࣭ ⭑

01・what kind of music does your oc listen to? who are their favorite musicians? (bonus - if you know it, what's they're all time favorite song?)

02・what are some implied things about your oc that aren't confirmed in canon? are they actually true or only implied? (bonus - do you think this would be a popular headcanon among fans of the character?)

03・what are a few random, insignificant facts about your oc? (any fact that isn't based on any story-driven information, but rather facts that add to the "human essence" of the character to make them feel more "realistic.")

04・does you oc have an significant scars anywhere on their body? if yes, where are they and how did the get them?

05・what color do you most associate with your oc and why?

06・if you could only pick one song lyric to describe your oc, what song lyric would you choose? (bonus - explain the context of your lyrical interpretation with the oc.)

07・what is your ocs full name? what does their name mean? (bonus - if you had a specific reason, why did you choose this name for them?)

08・does your oc play any instruments? what do they play and how did they learn? (bonus - rate, out of 10, their skill on every instrument they play.)

09・if your oc could change one thing about their physical appearance, what would they change and why? (bonus - if you want to do it, feel free to create a design for the character where they look exactly how they would want to look.)

10・what is the worst thing you oc has ever done without having a good or valid reason to do it? (for example, any violence done in self defense or them killing an awful person doesn't count. it must be something they've done that isn't justifiable in any way, even if it's a small thing like petty theft even though they could easily afford to pay for what they stole, etc.)

11・if you had to fan cast any celebrity as your oc, who would you choose and why?

12・what was your oc's first kiss like? (bonus - if it was with another one of your or someone else's oc, say who it was with.)

13・what is one crack ship with your oc that you actually think is really cute? (this excludes any ships that have ever been canon, even if they are no longer together. this only includes ships that are fairly random where the two characters have never interacted romantically.)

14・what would your ocs favorite fast food place? what would be their usual order? (bonus - what fountain drink would they normally get with their food?)

15・what is your ocs happiest childhood memory?

[b0nemarr0ws0up]

1. Who was the last person you held hands with?

2. Are you outgoing or shy?

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?

4. Are you easy to get along with?

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?

15. What good thing happened this summer?

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

17. Do you think there is life on other planets?

18. Do you still talk to your first crush?

19. Do you like bubble baths?

20. Do you like your neighbors?

21. What are you bad habits?

22. Where would you like to travel?

23. Do you have trust issues?

24. Favorite part of your daily routine?

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?

26. What do you do when you wake up?

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?

28. Who are you most comfortable around?

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?

30. Do you ever want to get married?

31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail?

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?

33. Spell your name with your chin.

34. Do you play sports? What sports?

35. Would you rather live without TV or music?

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?

37. What do you say during awkward silences?

38. Describe your dream girl/guy?

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?

40. What do you want to do after high school?

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?

43. Do you smile at strangers?

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?

46. What are you paranoid about?

47. Have you ever been high?

48. Have you ever been drunk?

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?

51. Ever wished you were someone else?

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?

53. Favourite makeup brand?

54. Favourite store?

55. Favourite blog?

56. Favourite colour?

57. Favourite food?

58. Last thing you ate?

59. First thing you ate this morning?

60. Ever won a competition? For what?

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?

62. Been arrested? For what?

63. Ever been in love?

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?

65. Are you hungry right now?

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?

67. Facebook or Twitter?

68. Twitter or Tumblr?

69. Are you watching tv right now?

70. Names of your bestfriends?

71. Craving something? What?

72. What colour are your towels?

72. How many pillows do you sleep with?

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?

75. Favourite animal?

76. What colour is your underwear?

77. Chocolate or Vanilla?

78. Favourite ice cream flavour?

79. What colour shirt are you wearing?

80. What colour pants?

81. Favourite tv show?

82. Favourite movie?

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?

85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?

87. First person you talked to today?

88. Last person you talked to today?

89. Name a person you hate?

90. Name a person you love?

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?

92. In a fight with someone?

93. How many sweatpants do you have?

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?

95. Last movie you watched?

96. Favourite actress?

97. Favourite actor?

98. Do you tan a lot?

99. Have any pets?

100. How are you feeling?

101. Do you type fast?

102. Do you regret anything from your past?

103. Can you spell well?

104. Do you miss anyone from your past?

105. Ever been to a bonfire party?

106. Ever broken someone’s heart?

107. Have you ever been on a horse?

108. What should you be doing?

109. Is something irritating you right now?

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?

111. Do you have trust issues?

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?

113. What was your childhood nickname?

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?

115. Do you play the Wii?

116. Are you listening to music right now?

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?

118. Do you like Chinese food?

119. Favourite book?

120. Are you afraid of the dark?

121. Are you mean?

122. Is cheating ever okay?

123. Can you keep white shoes clean?

124. Do you believe in love at first sight?

125. Do you believe in true love?

126. Are you currently bored?

127. What makes you happy?

128. Would you change your name?

129. What your zodiac sign?

130. Do you like subway?

131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

133. Favourite lyrics right now?

134. Can you count to one million?

135. Dumbest lie you ever told?

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?

137. How tall are you?

138. Curly or Straight hair?

139. Brunette or Blonde?

140. Summer or Winter?

141. Night or Day?

142. Favourite month?

143. Are you a vegetarian?

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?

145. Tea or Coffee?

146. Was today a good day?

147. Mars or Snickers?

148. What’s your favourite quote?

149. Do you believe in ghosts?

150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?  (via tchitsnathan)

[ludrii-shenanigins]

1. Who was the last person you held hands with?

2. Are you outgoing or shy?

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?

4. Are you easy to get along with?

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?

15. What good thing happened this summer?

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

17. Do you think there is life on other planets?

18. Do you still talk to your first crush?

19. Do you like bubble baths?

20. Do you like your neighbors?

21. What are you bad habits?

22. Where would you like to travel?

23. Do you have trust issues?

24. Favorite part of your daily routine?

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?

26. What do you do when you wake up?

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?

28. Who are you most comfortable around?

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?

30. Do you ever want to get married?

31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail?

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?

33. Spell your name with your chin.

34. Do you play sports? What sports?

35. Would you rather live without TV or music?

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?

37. What do you say during awkward silences?

38. Describe your dream girl/guy?

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?

40. What do you want to do after high school?

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?

43. Do you smile at strangers?

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?

46. What are you paranoid about?

47. Have you ever been high?

48. Have you ever been drunk?

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?

51. Ever wished you were someone else?

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?

53. Favourite makeup brand?

54. Favourite store?

55. Favourite blog?

56. Favourite colour?

57. Favourite food?

58. Last thing you ate?

59. First thing you ate this morning?

60. Ever won a competition? For what?

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?

62. Been arrested? For what?

63. Ever been in love?

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?

65. Are you hungry right now?

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?

67. Facebook or Twitter?

68. Twitter or Tumblr?

69. Are you watching tv right now?

70. Names of your bestfriends?

71. Craving something? What?

72. What colour are your towels?

72. How many pillows do you sleep with?

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?

75. Favourite animal?

76. What colour is your underwear?

77. Chocolate or Vanilla?

78. Favourite ice cream flavour?

79. What colour shirt are you wearing?

80. What colour pants?

81. Favourite tv show?

82. Favourite movie?

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?

85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?

87. First person you talked to today?

88. Last person you talked to today?

89. Name a person you hate?

90. Name a person you love?

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?

92. In a fight with someone?

93. How many sweatpants do you have?

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?

95. Last movie you watched?

96. Favourite actress?

97. Favourite actor?

98. Do you tan a lot?

99. Have any pets?

100. How are you feeling?

101. Do you type fast?

102. Do you regret anything from your past?

103. Can you spell well?

104. Do you miss anyone from your past?

105. Ever been to a bonfire party?

106. Ever broken someone’s heart?

107. Have you ever been on a horse?

108. What should you be doing?

109. Is something irritating you right now?

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?

111. Do you have trust issues?

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?

113. What was your childhood nickname?

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?

115. Do you play the Wii?

116. Are you listening to music right now?

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?

118. Do you like Chinese food?

119. Favourite book?

120. Are you afraid of the dark?

121. Are you mean?

122. Is cheating ever okay?

123. Can you keep white shoes clean?

124. Do you believe in love at first sight?

125. Do you believe in true love?

126. Are you currently bored?

127. What makes you happy?

128. Would you change your name?

129. What your zodiac sign?

130. Do you like subway?

131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

133. Favourite lyrics right now?

134. Can you count to one million?

135. Dumbest lie you ever told?

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?

137. How tall are you?

138. Curly or Straight hair?

139. Brunette or Blonde?

140. Summer or Winter?

141. Night or Day?

142. Favourite month?

143. Are you a vegetarian?

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?

145. Tea or Coffee?

146. Was today a good day?

147. Mars or Snickers?

148. What’s your favourite quote?

149. Do you believe in ghosts?

150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?  (via tchitsnathan)

Fuck you (affectively🥰)

JESUS ARE YOU SERIOUS XDDDDDDD thanks lmao

1. Who was the last person you held hands with? My girlfriend 😌 (Yeah I got one now lol, tho I don't really talk about it so yea)

2. Are you outgoing or shy? Shy all the way lmao you will NOT get me to talk to people xD online it's a tiny bit better but still shy lolz

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing? My girlfriend 😌 tho my real life friends too, we didn't hang out in way too long

4. Are you easy to get along with? Idk? xDDDD

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you? Yeahh I'd like to believe so Update: I asked and she said yes, so you got it conformed lol

6. What kind of people are you attracted to? Attracted? I don't do that lol I don't have such weaknesses Although if we were speaking aesthetically.. I found myself liking feminine people, if they are not too skinny And monsters lmao

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now? Hope so since I am in one rn lol Not romantic one cuz screw that crap but yea

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind? Considering I'm sorta genderfluid that's a difficult question xDD so idk, but not too many are on my mind besides my friends and such anyways so yuppers

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? YES very much so xD

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? My girlfriend 😌

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say? "aww thank you lol"

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now? Was a bit difficult to choose but these are prolly my top My Way by SIAMÉS (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z9ZlS7i2Xvc) ADHD by Silent Child (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LgPEyGlUQH8) The Code by Nemo (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0JqxpaJot2E) Jenny by Studio Killers (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2gzrqjl7on4) DON'T TRY by HEALTH (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DN1qM4f8_J0)

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair? Depends what people and if my hair is freshly washed, but usually yea

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles? In luck definitely, in mircales sorta

15. What good thing happened this summer? I overcame my fears and booked a plane ticket to my girlfriend so we met in real life for the first time. Good times

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? ........ yee the idea of it kinda makes me uncomfortable sometimes so I'd have to be in the right headspace, but yee

17. Do you think there is life on other planets? yeah, there gotta, maybe not as we know it but the universe is WAY too big for it to be completely devoid of it

18. Do you still talk to your first crush? Jokes on you, I never had a crush 😎 I don't have such weaknesses

19. Do you like bubble baths? I don't really remember taking one lol

20. Do you like your neighbors? One of them not really, the others are pretty nice yea

21. What are you bad habits? uhhh hehehe Overthinking, procrastinating, eating way too much or way too little, letting myself snap at people if I am too overwhelmed, staying up too late, refusing to listen to others even if they mean well if I think I know better, ....

22. Where would you like to travel? The Netherlands! For absolutely no reason lmao I also wanna get outside of Europe eventually, though not sure where exactly, maybe some fun island?

23. Do you have trust issues? yeahhh, always ready to be abandoned or backstabed..

24. Favorite part of your daily routine? Breakfast ig xD I don't really like my routine lmao

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with? Oh, ya know, the little wiggly guys on my chest and gonna be honest, the reproductive system gives me the ick too

26. What do you do when you wake up? Procrastinate in bed on my phone, regret it, go get breakfast xD

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker? I don't really know honestly

28. Who are you most comfortable around? My girlfriend 😌

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up? Jokes on you, I don't have exes 😎

30. Do you ever want to get married? I don't know xDD I have mixed feelings on the topic

31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail? yuppers, just barely long enough lol

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with? NONE, GEEZ, NONE PLEASE

33. Spell your name with your chin. l;uidfxrtii

34. Do you play sports? What sports? Thanks to my uni wanting me to have PE, I do table tennis now Out of my free will I used to do archery and belly dancing, but I don't have time for it now

35. Would you rather live without TV or music? TV, don't watch it anyways lmao

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them? I don't think I have, no If I enjoy someone's company I usually tell them, I try to be straightforward with that thing

37. What do you say during awkward silences? I usually stay silent and stare xD

38. Describe your dream girl/guy? I don't really have that lol

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in? Don't have a specific one, I honestly barely shop xD

40. What do you want to do after high school? I already finished high school and am in uni 😩

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? If they wanna get better, then yes. Otherwise it's just giving a second bullet to someone who missed you the first time

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean? That I'm extremely unconfortable or too nervous to speak xD

43. Do you smile at strangers? Not really, unless they do something nice for me

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean? I always wanted to go to space so there

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning? Shame

46. What are you paranoid about? Everything

47. Have you ever been high? nope, and not planning

48. Have you ever been drunk? not really

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about? I think so but I can't recall anything rn

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore? Grey

51. Ever wished you were someone else? Kind of, but not anyone specifically. Just different, devoid of some of my qualities I hate

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself? My anxiety. DELETE THAT CRAP PLEASE

53. Favourite makeup brand? I don't wear makeup xD

54. Favourite store? None really lol I barely shop

55. Favourite blog? Mine 😌 (Though I must say I really like this one called Drowninnoodles, it has lots of really cool art on it)

56. Favourite colour? Pinkish red

57. Favourite food? Ah! Too many Most of them are some sort of sweets though xD pancakes, ice cream, chocolate, cake, you name it

58. Last thing you ate? Chicken soup :}

59. First thing you ate this morning? This Czech pie thing called bábovka

60. Ever won a competition? For what? Never won one, but I got 3rd place in a belly dancing competition, and I think I got some good places in archery competitions as well but idk what kind anymore

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what? Nope, I was an angel

62. Been arrested? For what? Does in monopoly count?

63. Ever been in love? Eh, skipping this one, too complicated

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss? *sigh* let's not. If you really wanna know shoot me a dm lol

65. Are you hungry right now? Nope

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends? Well, look, I barely have any real life friends, and we don't hang out anymore due to time constraints, so at this point it's hard to tell lmao

67. Facebook or Twitter? neither 😎

68. Twitter or Tumblr? Tumblrrrrr

69. Are you watching tv right now? Nope

70. Names of your bestfriends? Spekkie, Azura, Bastet, Noodle (if ya allow me, I'd love to call you my bestie)

71. Craving something? What? A frigin BREAK, a big HUG from my one and only, plenty of ATTENTION, loads of MONEY

72. What colour are your towels? The one I'm using rn is pristine white, the rest is pretty much anything lol

72. How many pillows do you sleep with? 1 under my head, 3 by the wall so I don't kick it

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? yass, many

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have? UHHH too many lmao, at least a 100 I think

75. Favourite animal? The secretary bird!

76. What colour is your underwear? bruh not telling the internet that

77. Chocolate or Vanilla? Chocolateeee

78. Favourite ice cream flavour? Chocolateeee I also really like lemon and mint chocolate chip though

79. What colour shirt are you wearing? White with red sleeves

80. What colour pants? Blue

81. Favourite tv show? House of Anubis ig lol, currently watching it and it can get cheesy af but it's fun, gets me to think of different things when I'm stressed

82. Favourite movie? UHHHH don't do this to me pls I'm gonna say How To Train Your Dragon (the first one specifically, I don't really care about the sequels), loved it as a kid and it got a special place in my heart

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2? I don't even know what that is xD

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street? Same as previous questions lol

85. Favourite character from Mean Girls? I DON'T KNOW WHAT THAT IS

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo? hmmmmmmm Nemo, I think, though Dory is also very fun been a while since I watched it xD

87. First person you talked to today? My mom

88. Last person you talked to today? My girlfriend, lol, we were on a vc together as I answered these xDD

89. Name a person you hate? billionaires

90. Name a person you love? Girlfrennnnnnn also my frens

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now? BILLIONAIRES and whoever runs this stupid country

92. In a fight with someone? Like rn? I'm not, no xD

93. How many sweatpants do you have? Plenty lol, it's all I ever wear at home xD

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have? way too many

95. Last movie you watched? Half of this random Barbie movie that my girlfriend had me watch for the sillies

96. Favourite actress? Can't say I have one..?

97. Favourite actor? Same as previous

98. Do you tan a lot? Do I what?

99. Have any pets? Yuh, a dog called Charlie and a cat name Leon

100. How are you feeling? A bit conflicted, many things going on rn, but kinda chilling

101. Do you type fast? Yeah, multiple people told me it's scary xD

102. Do you regret anything from your past? Many things, but I try to get over it and move on

103. Can you spell well? Depends, I try to but I misspell a lot due to speed

104. Do you miss anyone from your past? hmmmm I don't know? I don't really feel like I actively miss anyone

105. Ever been to a bonfire party? Idk what that is so I don't think so xD

106. Ever broken someone’s heart? I don't know??? Not that I'm aware of

107. Have you ever been on a horse? Yeah, as a kid

108. What should you be doing? Sleeping xD

109. Is something irritating you right now? Me having to go to school by the end of the weekend

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt? I suppose? Sorta

111. Do you have trust issues? I feel like I answered this question before xD

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of? You're never gonna guess this My girlfriend 😌

113. What was your childhood nickname? .. crybaby

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state? Yeah, multiple times

115. Do you play the Wii? nope

116. Are you listening to music right now? yessss

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup? yess!!

118. Do you like Chinese food? no

119. Favourite book? uhhh none right now, but when I was younger I really liked Eragon

120. Are you afraid of the dark? no, I like it actually, it's cozy

121. Are you mean? When I'm irritated, yeah, but I try not to be otherwise

122. Is cheating ever okay? When it comes to stupid rules and stuff, I guess so yeah

123. Can you keep white shoes clean? Usually

124. Do you believe in love at first sight? No

125. Do you believe in true love? What even is that

126. Are you currently bored? Not too much actually, got plenty questions to answer xD

127. What makes you happy? Loads of things! Listening to music, playing games, drawing, attention my beloved, waking up a bit earlier on the weekends and knowing I can sleep in, hanging out with my friends, roleplaying, just chilling and listening to the birds singing as winds blows in my hair, looking at the stars late at night and let the vastness of space consume me fully.. And oh, did I mention my girlfriend? xD

128. Would you change your name? Prolly yeah, don't really like it

129. What your zodiac sign? Leo

130. Do you like subway? Like metro? It's pretty cool, but it can get really loud and crowded so that's not fun

131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? If we ignore the gender difficulty again, rejoice? Someone likes me hell yeah, also would be weird if my best friend didn't like me xD wouldn't really be my best friend then huh

132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? didn't I answer this before? xD

133. Favourite lyrics right now? damn it, this one's hard I'm just gonna hit you with the "we'll live like spoiled royalty, lovers, and partners in crime"

134. Can you count to one million? Theoretically yeah, but not gonna do it

135. Dumbest lie you ever told? I don't remember xD

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed? CLOSED

137. How tall are you? 155 cm (I know I know I'm a midget)

138. Curly or Straight hair? Like preference? Curly ig

139. Brunette or Blonde? Brunette I suppose

140. Summer or Winter? I prefer summer

141. Night or Day? Night

142. Favourite month? uhhh, ig July? School ends, summer vacation starts, easy

143. Are you a vegetarian? Nope, though I do try to limit how much meat I eat cuz I eat a bit too much of it imo xD

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate? Dark, definitely

145. Tea or Coffee? Tea, I don't like coffee

146. Was today a good day? Pretty much yeah, not the greatest but it was good

147. Mars or Snickers? Never had Mars so I'm going with Snickers

148. What’s your favourite quote? Hmmm Not sure but one I like comes to mind "If the crown fits, wear it"

149. Do you believe in ghosts? To some degree, yeh

150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?  (via tchitsnathan) It's empty xD Not like it matters much cuz the book is in Czech lmao

There we go, finally THIS TOOK SO LONG EVERYBODY WENT TO BED ALREADY

[ed-recovery-affirmations]

A reminder/vent/plea for advice:

Eat meals frequently!! This is something I need to get tattooed on me. Because my ED consisted of a lot of long fasts broken by binges I think my mind and body learned that it is normal to eat nothing for 13 hours and then eat 70% of my daily calories in less than an hour. I think the appetite suppressant quality of my Vyvanse and my vaping addiction are exacerbating this problem. Not to mention I get so wrapped up in certain things that I completely forget I need to eat. But the body is not meant to go 12 waking hours without fuel. I think because I end up eating enough (maybe too much) when I do eventually eat, I convince myself that my feelings of faintness, brain fog, irritability, nausea [ALL OF THIS IS HUNGER] can’t be due to lack of food all day. “How can I be so hungry that I can’t move??? I ate a whole bag of Doritos and 5 low-fat cheese sticks 16 hours ago!!”. That isn’t how the body works!

I desperately wish I was able to just force myself to cook and eat meals throughout the day but I have yet to find a way to make it stick!

Has anyone else experienced something similar? Does anyone have any recommendations?

Thank you so much <3

I absolutely feel this, because I very much forgot to eat when I started Strattera. Those ADHD meds just take away all hunger cues. You could be starving and your body just…doesn’t feel anything. I also had a moment where I went all day without eating wondering why I felt so crappy. After I had a late-night snack that brought me near- instant relief, I was like “ohhh.”

Some things you can try: cook big meals in bulk and portion them out in your fridge and freezer so that they’re easy to access and prepare when you’re rushing! This especially works with soups, stews, curries, rice/quinoa bowls, pizza. Do the same with snacks - make it easy. Keep portions of fresh fruit/snackable veggies, granola bars, peanut butter crackers, snack packs of nuts or chips - whatever you can buy or prep in bulk and store easily. ADHD does not go away magically just because you have meds - work WITH your brain, not against it!

On a related note, set timed reminders on your phone so that you remember to EAT the meals and snacks! “Check in with my body” alarms might be good too. If Vyvanse makes it hard to eat intuitively by checking in with your stomach, practicing tuning in to your other body cues might help.

(Buying frozen meals can help if you are too busy/struggling to find the executive function to cook.)

You can’t punish yourself out of having ADHD. Might as well work with your brain instead!